My Life As LGBTQ+: Volume 1

Happy New Year!

WOO IT'S 2016!

This has by far been my favorite New Year's Eve so far, not that it was really all that eventful. I'm not a very exciting person.

I'm not really one for New Year's resolutions and all that, if I want to set a goal for myself I can do it anytime I want. But for all those that do have resolutions, I hope you are able to accomplish your goals and I believe in you.

Although I'm not one for setting new goals, I do want to reflect on my year a little bit and see how much I've changed.

January: Well, last year I started my new year by coming out as a lesbian (That is what I identified with at the time) to my friends and parents, it went pretty well. And I spent most of this month starting to really explore different clothing styles and ways to express myself.

Febuary: Not much happened worth nothing, just furthered my self exploring through my style and began to learn/question the concept of gender. I also became very close friends with someone (I'll call her X) over this month as well as last month.

March: This month I got to go to a gaming convention called Pax East, where I met a lot of my youtube idols at the time and also spent some quality time with X. Towards the end of this month is also when I really started to question my gender, now with the knowledge that there are more than two genders.

April: This month was what I think I remember to be the first time I ever came out to someome about my gender. During this time, I identified as demiflux, and its also the time my good friend Grey came out with his gender, which helped me to come out with mine.

May: During this month, my best friend X had begun to distance herself from me, which she had done to other people I knew in the past. I didn't realize at the time, but me trying to stay friends with her when all she did was push me away and then complain that nobody was there for her was very toxic for me.

June: This is when I started to realize that me and X's friendship was toxic to me, but I still didn't want to let go of it. I also came out to my dad and other peers about my gender (still demiflux at the time).

July: This month is when I finally let go of my friendship with X, and because of it a new friendship between me, Grey and Avalon blossomed. We were pretty good friends before then, but I think what happened in this month just brought the three of us a lot closer together. I also was able to go to iiSuperwomanii's show, which was kind of a turning point for me to really take my life into my own hands.

August: Our trio friendship continud to grow and develop in this month, as well as me getting rid of some toxic things in my life. I also explored my sexual/romantic orientation a lot more, and discovered I was asexual during this time. I would go through a lot of different romantic orientations, but eventually came to conclusion that I'm aromantic by the next month. I also learned that I fit a lot more into the label of gender-nuetral rather than demiflux.

September: This is when school started up again, and the stress of it really hit me hard. Me, Grey, and Avalon were closer than ever and we all really began fully trust eachother and form a loyal, long lasting friendship between the three of us.

October: During this month is when me and Grey finally decided to label our relationship as a queer platonic relationship, and this really proved to both of us how much we mean to eachother and reminded me that I have a reason I was put on his earth.

November: This month, as well as last month, life started becoming suddenly much harder as I was hit with the painful reality of life. I might consider this to be one of my worst months in 2015, just because I had an identity crisis. Not about how I identify my gender or sexuality, but more so how I am as a person and the way I act/do things.

December: After having a somewhat mid-life crisis (and the crisis still continued a bit), I was sort of able to begin to learn more about myself and what I really like doing in life, and what generally makes me feel happy and fufilled. Although, I know I still have a lot of growing and changing to do.

This may not have been of much interest to any of you, but this chapter was more for me to reflect on myself and what happened and how I can grow from it. A little self-reflection is good every once in a while, because it gives you a chance to see how much you've changed and evolved as a person.

I hope you all had a wonderful New Year's Eve yesterday and a fanatbulous new year to come :D