The secret

The New Dreams

My heart sank.
"What?" I don't know what I'm hearing.
"You put my daddy in jail. You wanted it bitch. Just like Serena did"
"You son of a bitch" I say throwing him up the wall. "You are literally a son of a bitch aren't you you ass hole"
"Oooooo I like a bitch who knows how to handle me"
"Yeah, I know how to handle you"
I can't control myself.
I grab him and through him to the ground. I start kicking and punching him.
Elliot runs in and pulls me off of him.
"You bastard. You bastard!" Elliot drags me out of the room. I cry into his chest. He holds me close to him.
"You shouldn't of gone in there"
"I had to hear it. I had to hear what he did to her, from him I had to hear it from him"
I hug him tightly.
"His dad. He rapped me in the alley" I cry hard into his chest.
"Mom?"
I wipe my face and turn to her.
"Y..you were rapped?"
I can't speak. I just nod and hold her in my arms.
"It was jacks dad" I say.
"Oh my god" she cries
"It's okay baby. It's okay"  I hold her closer.

3 weeks later

"On the charge of rape, how do you find?" The judge asks.
"Guilty" the juror says
I hold her in my arms.
"It's over baby. It's over" I whisper.
We stand up.
"You wanted it bitch. You wanted it. Just like your momma did!" Jack yells from the other side of the court room.
She starts to cry again.
"It's okay baby." I say holding her.
Everyone is staring at us.
I feel El's arms wrap around me. I jump.

We get back to the house.
"Baby are you okay?" I ask her.
"Yeah mom, I'll be fine" I say as I tuck her in her bed like a little kid.
I walk out and see Elliot standing there in the hall way.
"Baby are you okay?" He says.
"Yeah I'm fine" I say.
I walk to our bedroom and get in the bed. I feel him climb in next to me. He puts his arm around me. I flinch and curl up in a ball.
I hear him sigh.

No please get off of me! Leave me alone. Please get off. Stop it! I cry.
You dirty little whore.
Dirty little whore.
You are a dirty little whore.
Please get off me! Stop it! Please!

"Liv baby it's okay it's just me" I wake up to see Elliot with his arms around me.
"Please don't touch me" I say moving away from him. I can't have him touch me. I feel so dirty.
I look over at the clock and see its only 5:00. I don't care. I get up and go to the shower. I feel so dirty. I feel so unclean.
I wash myself three times.
When I get out I see that it's 6:30 and Elliot is already up because Serena had a nightmare. I get dressed and go into the living room.
"Dad please, I'm fine" she says.

Elliot's POV

"I just don't know what to do! I've got Liv waking up in the middle of the night with flashbacks and then telling me not to touch her. Then I've got Serena crying and screaming in the middle of the night also with flashbacks and telling me to leave her. I don't know what to do, the two most important people in my life, are pushing me away when I'm trying to help them" I explain
"How did you calm down Liv this morning?" The shrink asks
"I told her it was okay and that it was only me, she flinched when I had my arms around her and told me not to touch her"