Perfect » n.h {COMPLETED}

XVI

(A/N to fill in those who skipped last chapter)

Basically what happened was Mel cut again, and, as she fell asleep, she wrote a blog post explaining the fact that depression and suicidal thought/self harm sucks. Anyway, continue reading!

I wake up, wrist throbbing and head aching. The events of the night prior were fresh in my mind, and I still had the glum I carried through them. I was very down, and each step i took felt as though there were thousand pound weights on my shoulders, crushing my bones and my soul due to its agonizing force. I squint, bright rays of sunshine from my window beaming brightly into my eyes. Mornings, great right? I stand up, realizing I haven't eaten in quite some time. I felt weak, and dropped to my knees from pure enfeeblement. 

Suddenly, my stomach churned and I couldn't help but feeling something bad was soon to happen. I held my stomach, as my stomach roll caused me to feel ill. I ended up vomiting, and my mom ran up to check my temperature--106 degrees, F.

Due to the fever, school is not an option(Not that that's not absolutely amazing). I decide to catch up on sleep, as that was much avoided last night. I shut my eyes and fall asleep again.

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I wake up and, from instinct, check my phone. I scroll through the messages, unsurprised to see many notifications from twitter alerting me of the new tweets from people I follow. Everything is seemingly normal.

I continue to scroll until the bright blue icon of the twitter app turns to a fluorescent green--Messages.

Alyssa: Hey. We need to talk.. you free today?

I think over my schedule, I'm free.

And then I remember--I have to pack.

Me: Yeah, I have great news. *sarcasm* But you'll have to come over to mine, as I have stuff to do and I'm sick(hope you're ok with that).

Alyssa responded almost instantly with a surprisingly long message.

Alyssa: Yeah, I have news as well. You being sick is completely fine(saying this is ironic, seeing as--well I'll tell you later). I'll be there in 20?

Me: Sounds good! See you soon xx

I slip on a black tank top and black, ripped skin jeans, accompanied by a small, long sleeve, army green cardigan and some combat boots. I throw my hair in a messy bun and start getting out boxes to begin packing. I bring some 20 boxes into my room and decided to start with clothes, they'll take the longest.

After packing for a while the doorbell rings throughout the house, signifying that Al had arrived. I hurriedly ran down the stairs and opened the door, inviting her in and showing her my room.

"Nice.. boxes?" She laughed, holding up one of the hollow cardboard cubes and tossing it in the air.

"I'll explain later," I reply quickly, "first, whats your news?"

Alyssa's usually bright and cheery tone dropped immediately, her expression quickly turning form happy to scared--nervous--snervous? (A/N Tyler Oakley AFFFFFF)

"Alyssa? Is everything okay?" I inquire, hoping she'll explain what's happened.

"Uh.. I had that MRI today, yanno?" She started, sighing as I nodded. "Well, they showed me my results.." She paused and tears welled up in her eyes.

"I lit up like a Christmas tree." And that was all it took. Tears flowed down my streaks in an almost constant manor, one after the other blurring my vision. I tried to speak, to croak out a 'Don't worry, it'll be okay.' to sooth Alyssa's obviously terrified self, but I couldn't speak. I was choking on the thought of my best friend possibly dying, and that overwhelmed me with emotions I can't begin to fathom into words.

Eventually, after minutes of not being able to function properly, I croaked out a "no.. No!" I screamed it, not caring who heard. My heart shattered as her previous words processed in my mind. My only friend, my best friend, the only person in the world who could make me smile when no one else could, has a possibility of dying.

"S-St-Stage 4, lung cancer." She stuttered. I wrapped my arms around her neck and she wrapped hers around my back.

"I can't lose you," I sobbed into her shoulder. Her friendship was what I valued most in the world. I never wanted to lose her.. Ever. "You're all I really have anymore."

"Mel, they don't think i'm going to make it much longer..Th-They say I have around 2-8 days..." She whispered and I broke. Nothing was holding back what I was feeling. There was no longer any barrier between my heart and my mouth that forced me to reconsider everything I said. Thoughts were just pouring out of me like light from the Sun.

"I'm going to be all alone.. I can't do that again.. I need you..You're my only friend..

"Please, don't leave like the rest of them did."

(A/N)

Hey guys!

so this chapter was kind of boring, but it also revealed the big traumatic twist of ALYSSA HAVING CANCER :((

Honestly I knew this was going to happen (as I'm writing the story) but I still want to cry about this. 

Will she make it? Or will the cancer take over?

ew I'm annoying k bye

~M xx