Perfect » n.h {COMPLETED}

XXVIII

 I knew it was too good to be true. I knew I shouldn't have let him in. It's not real, they're probably just playing me.

I spend the next few hours watching movies on Netflix. I begin to think about the things that have occurred recently.

Alyssa.

Luke.

Arzaylea.

Niall.

Everything's gone to absolute horror, and I hate dealing with it. I pull out my phone, and tap Alyssa's number.

Me: Hey, Al. I miss you. Really. I wish you were here. I hope you're not watching me, you'd be disappointed. I'm sorry. I wish I could be with you, and I have a feeling I'm not far from that. I just hope you forgive me.

I hit send, though I know she won't see it. Obviously. My door opens, and I look to see my mom.

"I'm home, but I've got to go back to work, so do you want me to make you something to eat before I go back?"

I shake my head, "Already ate." and get back to my show. 

"Okay, sweetie. Love you!" She exclaims, I'm guessing leaving to go back to work.

I get on tumblr, deciding to write a post.

Hey guys.

So, recent times haven't been the best for me. I've been kind of.. out of it. Things have been semi okay, but they went downhill quick.

Alyssa--my best friend I told you all about? Died. She had severe cancer, and it ultimately took her life. That was a devastation. I cried for weeks. I'm still not fully recovered, but I'm better. I guess.

I'd like to say I am. But at this point, I don't know if I am anymore. N, the guy I told you all about? He posted a picture of us together, and let's just say it didn't go down well with his followers. But that's not all, things have gone really downhill.

From there, I elaborated on everything that's gone on recently. Luke, Arzaylea, Michael, Niall--everything.

I proceed to go through my notifications, and find that the fans have found that.

You're such an attention seeker.

Explain to me again why Niall likes you? you're literally an attention whore who should die.

kys.

And, worst of all, someone sent me a screenshot of a photo Luke posted and supposedly deleted, captioned 'You know that Melanie girl? Niall is going to dump her. Don't you worry your pretty little heads, she will be out of everyones hair soon, thank god.'

Why would Luke say that?

(A/N)

i hate myself and soon yOu wIlL alL hAtE mE tOo I'm soRRY

~M xx