Till Death Do Us Part. (BoyxBoy)

Chapter 16.

Riley's P.O.V
Nori finished unwrapping her presents from everyone when we got home. The dinner was great and the celebration was even greater. We really had a good time. And also on New Years everyone will be over at my parents.

I'm guessing it'll be great.

"Dada where is my gift?" Nori asked me. I smiled and picked her up. "Axel! Nori wants her Christmas present." I said. Axel came out the bedroom and smiled before kissing me on the lips and Nori on her cheek. "Let's go then." He said as he grabbed our toiletries.
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After thirty minutes we got there. Nori looked confused and bored out of her mind. "What are we doing here?" She questioned as I put her down. "Go get your present." Axel said as he pointed at the house in front of us.

The bike stood at the front door with a blue and black-her favorite colors-bow on it and on the door. At the top of the door there was a card that had 'for Nori' tapped to it. Nori's eyes widened and she screamed excitedly.

She began to jump up and down with excitement. He ponytail becoming undone. She ran to the bike and took the bow off gently before taking the one off the door and sticking them to her arm.

We walked toward her and she smiled widely. "Thank you!" She screamed as she jumped up and down. If you're wondering what she got for Axel and I she got me a basket of macrons and chocolate and for Axel she got him vitamin sweets and a four month supply of vanilla protein shake, which is hard to find in that simple flavor these days.

I got Axel the latest iPad that was already set up and ready for him to use, it had his favorite music and videos and an album full of the three of us. His favorite apps are there everything. And in his notes I wrote him something he can read when he's lost me.

But I'll let him read it soon enough I guess. His password is our surname, but in numbers. It's a very complicated number scheme if I must be honest. He hasn't given me my present yet, but honestly I don't care if he got me one, him being with me after everything I've put him through the is the best Christmas present I could receive from him.

We walked inside and watched a movie after taking a tour of the house. Nori fell asleep so we tucked her in bed before going into our room. I was really happy right now, nothing could make this night better.

Axel kissed me once the door was shut and kissed back as my heart melted at the beautiful sensation. He pulled me closer and kissed me deeper before pulling away. "I'm going to make sweet love to you Baby Boy." He whispered. And here I was thinking nothing could make this night better.
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I woke up to Axel cuddled up against me. He held me protectively and looked like he was ready to shoot someone in his sleep to protect me. I don't know what those nightmare projection people did, but they terrified Axel into becoming less risky with me.

He always stops at the stop sign he never exceeds the limit, sometimes he avoids driving all together and going to balcony with me, or leaving the house without his phone, he never ever leaves my side. Not that I don't like it but I'm really worried he'll get all crazy over trying to keep me alive and safe.

I don't want that.

He and I already have enough craziness to deal with as it is. But nevertheless he just wants to protect me, but I know him. He'll go crazy, thinking I'm not safe enough and probably end up like the guys who obsess over him. He'll be that guy.

I have to talk to him, to keep him from becoming a mess. Axel shifted around and held me tighter. "It's all my fault..." He mumbled. "I did...I pushed him..." He mumbled some more. That statement left a very uneasy feeling lurking around in me.

His nightmares are back, I guess knowing why you're having them doesn't really get rid of them at all. He held me tighter and breathed against my neck before sniffing me.

What the fuck?

Sniffing me in his sleep, the hell. This is beginning to become scary. I'm getting stressed now, really stressed. And It was becoming hot all of a sudden.

Jesus...please, not now of all times. I begged myself not to have a panic attack. Ever since Axel fell off the balcony I've been having panic attacks and they got worse when I tried to jump from his old apartment building.

I didn't want to make him worry so I didn't say anything and I was considering it some time but now that he's having these ever so graceful occurring nightmares I can't tell him. It'll push his buttons and kick down his wall of composer.

I don't want that, not now not ever.

Thinking about him and setting him over the edge by telling him made my panic attack sink in faster. Goodness. I tried to get out of Axel's tight hold on me but I couldn't. He was holding me too tight. This was it, Axel was going to wrap me in bubble wrap, tape and rope before putting me in the basement to keep me safe.

My throat tightened and I closed my eyes.

"Axel help me!" I screamed...
He hugged me so tight...
He saved me...
He loves me more than he loves her...
Why did I leave, I shouldn't have left...
"I'm sorry Axel!" I shouted as we hugged...

Memories of that fucking day when I wanted to jump came flooding into my brain. I resisted the urge to cry in pain as I wasn't getting enough oxygen. Tears started to leak from my eyes as I shook violently.

I don't know what woke him up, but it woke him up and at the worst time. "Oh my god! Riley b-breath...was I...was I holding too tight?" He asked anxiously. If I answered I would waste my last breath. "Baby s-speak to me, tell m-me what's w-wrong." He stuttered desperately.

I shook my head as I looked at him. A layer of sweat was building up on his skin and his breath was becoming quick. He started to wheeze and he turned on his back.

A fucking asthma attack? And now of all damn times!

I flipped my anxiety off and searched my dresser for his pump. I fumbled with it but got it in his mouth. He took in the air and pulled it from his mouth before kissing me. My breath came back and I coughed as he pulled away. I sucked air into my lungs as I continued to cry.

He held me tightly whispering that's it's okay and that I'm okay. I hate myself.
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A/N
Yea if I were cruel I would've killed Riley but I ship it so hard I can't.
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