HIGH SCHOOL GIRL

Chapter 21: Flying

Lexi 

It's raining today. 

Its as if God knows that Angela is having her funeral. It's like he knows that if it was a clear, sunny day then it would only make things even more depressing. While sitting in the car while my mom drives us to the local church, my mind is surprisingly blank. 

Yes, Angela died. Today is her funeral, and I understand that I should be bawling my eyes out. However, for some reason I don't think I need to do that right now. Right now, I just want to sit here and be nothing. 

The black dress I'm wearing is extremely long and uncomfortable and I like it just the way it is. I don't think I should be comfortable at all today. It just feels really selfish to have anything that makes me feel in any way happy. 

The whole school is coming to the funeral, probably except for a couple of people. A.k.a Aurymar. When a student dies, a funeral is like a social event. Everyone's somewhat sad, or at least indifferent. The next day however people will go back to their regular schedules, except for talking about the funeral and who was there. 

The only people who don't go through this, are the students who were close to the student who die. The people cry the most at the funeral and are the most depressed. These people are the ones who will go through being pitied by everyone for the next year. These people kind of people will never be the same again. 

These people are people like me and Lola. Because Lola and I loved Angela so much, but we abused her and now she's gone forever because we didn't care enough.

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Lola 

Sitting here in the church while hearing the slow, symphonic sounds of the piano does nothing to calm me. I don't know why, but I start to think of my future. The agent I now have called me today. He told me there's a casting for a new show in Hollywood. It's a minor roll, but he thinks I can get it.

I told him I would get back to him considering Angela's funeral is today. In any other circumstances I would've been bouncing with joy. If I go to Hollywood, I would take my brothers and Elsi with me. I would use the money I make from acting to get a us a nice apartment and I would leave my father to fend for himself.

But I can't do that. I've been raped, scarred, and abused by this man. He hurt me till I cracked to the bare minimum. But he still has full custody over me and my brothers. The only way I could possibly leave is if I reported my father and Elsi took custody.

It hits me that if I tell the police my dad would go to jail. Maybe even prison; for years. I have that power, I can have him locked up. I can do it. 

My only regrets are leaving Lexi, and of course I can't take my family with me right away. I have to make enough money first, and then Elsi would have to find a job in L.A. We would have to find a nice apartment at a nice price range. There's just so much to put into it. 

I'm one of the first people to arrive. I sit near the front of the church, on the red plush chair. I can see Angela's casket clearly from here. Though the lid is currently closed it feel like I can still see her body. I realize again that she isn't in her host anymore, she's somewhere else having the best peace she could ever have. In front of me is only a hollow shell that took her appearance. 

After staring at her for a few minutes I realize that the church is now half full. It's hard not to notice all the eyes that are staring at me. Probably with half-hearted sympathy, or waiting for me to do something thats worthy of gossip. 

Suddenly, I feel someone sit next to me and take my hand. I turn to find Lexi, she has a reassuring look on her face. She's sending me a message to be strong. I can tell she's trying to reassure herself as well.