for him [bxb] ✔️

7 // isaac

Alexa Losey. An upperclassmen senior known for her raging house parties that could be rightfully be attended by anyone in need of alcohol or sex.

Two years ago I had an affair. I was the subject of a relationship that only held abusive arguments and fights that would slowly outnumber the warm cuddles and kisses- once remembered for as a satisfying feeling to both our undying pleasures. His name was Isaac and he altered my once small world to something much more complex and larger than I had perceived.

It was on New Years Eve that my cocky 15 year old self decided to attend a small gathering that had promised both beer and countless opportunities of hormonal sex. Being the idiot I was, I made the party mine for the taking.

Still being steamed from the last argument I had had with the boy who had in fact been correct in his accusations, I had dressed myself to resemble a youthful playboy and set out for the ever popular event.

I drank a lot.

I shared my lips with dozens of partygoers.

Worst was when I saw the polaroids being passed around the next week when classes resumed- one showed my mouth enclosed around the shaft of another boy from my calculus class who had been equally embarrassed from the sudden photo.

I could smell the heartbreak leaking onto my guilty hands and I had spent the next week feeling sick to my stomach, crying myself out of the bottled up tears.