I held him tight as we all began to walk back inside the motel.
They all acted so calm,
I just killed someone.
He might have had a family, he might have had a dream to fulfill,
and I just took it all away.
When we got inside Harry took me straight to my bedroom, my arm hurt, I also just murdered someone.
"I just woke up!" I whined, as he put me on the bed.
"Just take a moment." He said sitting next to me.
I set my head on his shoulder and sighed.
"I'm proud of you." He said quietly.
"I just killed someone how can you be proud." I said, disgusted in myself.
"You're like me now, you're one of us." He said kissing the top of my head, I smiled.
I was happy when he was by me.
"What was this meeting?" I asked after awhile of silence.
"About Ben." He said flatly.
"What about Ben?" I asked curiously.
"Don't worry about it." He said quietly into the top of my head.
"Do you always do this to girls?" I asked, he laughed.
"Do what?" He said pulling me closer.
"Be all, seductive." I said struggling to find words as he ran his hand down my leg.
"Nope, that's just me." He chuckled as I shuttered at his touch.
"Do you always do this to boys?" He asked softly, turning more towards me.
"Do what?" I smirked.
"What you're doing right now." He groaned as if I was hurting him.
"I don't know what I'm doing?" I laughed.
He shushed me and kissed my jaw.
He left a trail of kisses leading to my mouth.
He stopped before he let our lips connect, "Is this ok?" He asked slowly, his hot breath stimulating my lips, I nodded.
He slowly and lightly kissed my lips. My eyes fluttered shut as the kiss quickened.
It felt like fireworks were firing off, it was perfect.He slowly moved his hand to the back of my neck.
He pulled back and looked down, I kept my eyes closed, savoring the kiss.
He took a deep breath and stood up.
I heard the door slam and my eyes flew open.
I sat on the bed in full bliss, yet extreme anger in myself.
I looked at the gun on my bed across from me. I threw it at the wall in full rage.
I clutched my head in my hands as hot angry tears ran down my cheeks. I got up and walked to the bathroom.
I looked in the mirror, all I saw was a monster, a killing, hideous, unlovable, not good enough, monster.
I slammed my hand down on the counter.
I heard a loud crash and a yell in pain.
I ran out of room, it sounded like Harry.
