Thoughts and Rambles

You made me feel like shit in 2.5 seconds; here's my response to that...

I'm sorry

I'm sorry I'm such a disappointment to you

I'm sorry I can't be what you want me to

I'm sorry If I hurt you, I know I did, I always somehow do.

I'm sorry I'll cry about it; I know it'll made me look weak

I'm sorry all I can do is apologize; What more can I do when the distance is so great?

I'm sorry I can't make it up to you

I'm sorry for being such a wimp and not telling you how I felt earlier

I'm sorry my insecurities hold me back from saying so many things; expressing so many emotions

I'm sorry you're with me when you could do so much better, you deserve better

I'm sorry I'm not good enough for you, a small part of me held on to that small sliver of hope that I could be for 4 years now

I'm sorry I'm breaking down right now and not replying to you, it was either this or relapsing again...

I'm sorry I can't put into words what i'm think most of the time; It's not like you can read my mind and I don't exactly make it easy do I ?

I'm sorry I can't ever meet anyone's expectations of me

I'm sorry my body is shaking right now, I've already made so many typos because of it

I'm sorry I had to hold back my sob when I knew you would eventually say what you did

I'm sorry I'm so dramatic

I'm sorry I'll be at 15 percent battery soon, my legs will probably give out after crying so I can't reach my charger

I'm sorry the silent tears will stream my face because I know what'll probably come next

I'm sorry if you think i'm blowing you off right now; I'm not and I really do try to get to you so please don't blame me for something I seriously can't control

I'm sorry I can't ever meet anyone's expectations of me, not just yours

I'm sorry if I fucked anything up

I'm sorry i'm so far away

I'm sorry that you probably feel like you have to like me, love me, anything with me really... Please just say something if that's the case

but most of all I'm sorry I'm me, why would anyone seriously put up with me?