In Love, Alone, and Terrified.

Chapter Four The Biggest Mistake

It was a cold night late December. To be exact it was Christmas Eve Eve. We had been talking about it for awhile. I told him I was not sure if I wanted it to happen I didn't know if I wanted to give it up quite yet. I was scared of what would happen how it would happen. But that night he called me and said " im coming to pick you up be outside in five" I replied with a simple "ok" and he hung up. This was the night I was going to sneak out of my house for the first time. I went out the back door, because my whole family was asleep. I put my hand on the handle and began to open it. Not knowing what the rest of the night would behold. I stepped out and felt the cold air hit my face. The door creaked as I opened it. I stepped out. Knowing there was no going back now. That's the night I wish I could take back and change for ever. He came and picked me up in his truck and drove to a empty block. It started off with us just in the back to his truck talking. I always loved my conversations with him. He made me feel like I was the only girl in the world. He had heard about what a shitty day I had had. So we just sat there and talked for hours then it happened before I knew it he was leaned over kissing me. Then the next minute it was over. The pain I was in was unbelievable. Words couldn't explain I was cry not only because of that but because I hated the way I felt before and even more now that it was over, just the talking and everything it was silent, I felt the same way again. The same way I had before we started talking before we had done anything   So empty and alone. But there I was falling asleep in his arms like I always wanted. but what had I just done. I stopped thinking about it all just long enough to fall asleep. Before I had fallen asleep he asked me the plan for getting back into my house. And when I had to be back. I told him the plan but not a time. I would have said never if I could but I knew I had to be back before my mom woke so just put that question aside while I spent a little more time with him. Then I had been awoken by a dog barking in the distance. Honestly thank god for that dog if not for the dog I would have stayed asleep all night. That's something you will never hear me say again! Turning over to pick my phone up I looked at the time oh my gosh it 3am turning quickly, hurrying to wake up myself and shaking michael out of his sleep I said with a semi concerned tone " Michael I have to go now." "What time is it?" He said in a lot less concerned voice. "3am." I replied. He jumped up faster then I had ever seen him before. Hurrying to put his shirt on. We hurried back to my house where he dropped me off at the back gate. Leaving him with a kiss. Walking in the back door I was so tired I could not think about anything else the only thing on my mind was going back to sleep.