In Love, Alone, and Terrified.

Chapter Eight What Am I Going To Do

Thinking about everything. I did not know what to do. I had already moved out of my moms house just because of everything. My life has become very confusing. I had no idea how to do this. It has been almost 4 months now since I had last talked to Michael if it was true what the doctor told me. It was his baby as well. I didn't know whether I should call him and tell him. Or figure it out on my own as I had been doing for the past four months. If it was true this would change my whole life. Do I get an and abortion? Do I have the baby? After it's born do I keep it? Do I give it up for adoption? How was I going to do this all by myself? After a lot of thought on the matter, I decided it was my baby and I was going to keep it. After I've come to peace with the thought that I was going to have a baby I was so happy about it. Danielle and Emmy or so supportive of my decisions and said that no matter what they would be there for me and my baby. I honestly don't know what I would do without friends like them. We decided together Danielle, Emmy, and I that it would be best for me and my child that we kept Michael out of it. He had moved on with Becca already for all I knew they could be having there own child right now. And I had to think of how I going to tell Braden? The thought of him had not even come up until he got home. When I saw him the only thing I could do was do what I did every time he came home from work. Which was run up to him and tell him how much I loved him. He knew there was something wrong because he swept me right off my feet and brought me to the bedroom sat me down and said "talk." He told me he would be there and support and love me still no matter what it was I was keeping from him. I was always so careful with what I said and did around him scared he would leave just like Michael had. Even though Braden and I were only together for 3 months I cared about him so much. As I told him about everything he sat there just smiling the more I went on the bigger his smile got. He told me after I was done that he wished I had told him earlier because he would have been there by my side through it all. He was sad alittle that it was not his but he was happy that we had decided to call it his. Because as we know there's no other guy who would be the perfect one to call my child his dad. Few weeks has passed by and we had done all the farther tests we needed to do now I was almost 7 mouths pregnant. I was scared about the whole thing but as time went by I just got happier and happier. We told the doctor not to tell us anything other that if the baby was ok and health. We wanted the gender to be a surprise. I had decided on the names since it was my baby. If it was a girl her name is going to be Gracelynn Ann and if it was a boy it's going to be Liam Ashton. I was so happy. The best feeling ever was when my two best friends and Braden would make it clear I was the mother or that I was about to be one. It made me so happy. Just the feeling that I was a mom now. I don't know why it made me feel this way but it did. And I was already in love with little Liam or Gracelynn. When ever people told me they were in love with there baby before it was even born I did not understand. I always thought how could you be in love with it you have not even seen or met it yet. It's not even in the world yet. But as soon as I found out there was a little baby inside of me I finally understood the feeling. It was truly amazing and I was in love with my child to be.