In Love, Alone, and Terrified.

Chapter Six The Truth Is Out

Later that day I was sitting on my couch thinking about everything that had happened in the last 24 hours. Wow it really was a lot to take In at one time. I was even having a hard time with it, and I was apart of it all. The pain, the joy, the love. It was all truly amazing, every last bit of it. I would not want to change a single thing in my world right now. My phone began to ring. The search to find it had begun. I found it but I was to late there it was a missed call from Michael.  I quickly texted him just to see what he needed.  He quickly replied with a text that said "I needed to talk to you about something but I would rather text it anyway." My heart started racing. I could not figure it out. I told myself he loves me how bad could it be. I'm probably way over thinking this. It's probably nothing. Sitting there wait for the text back from him. Buzz, buzz, buzz. There it was the text I had been waiting for. Shaking I unlocked my phone it was the text I was waiting for. I started to read it "I'm sorry I don't want it to be like this but it's the way it had to be," I froze right there not knowing what to think but continued reading. "we need to end this I don't love you anymore it's not anything you did or anything I just love someone else and I had not realize I did until the other night when I was with her, you deserve better anyway. It was amazing the time I spent with you but it's for the best. Goodbye." I just dropped my phone right there numb not knowing what to think or what I was going to do. Do i tell my mom now? Do i keep quiet? I really had no idea on what I should do. What if I had gotten pregnant for the other night? Question after question flooded my head. I had no idea what to do I was alone and so scared. Do I text him see why he would do that or if it was even him texting? Who else would it be? My mind was going one hundred miles an hour. I decided to text him he replied super fast when I saw his name pop up on the screen the biggest smile apired on my face. That went away the second I read the message. It really was him texting and he did love another girl. The next text I got from tore me apart from the inside out. He told me to delete his number and to not text him again that he was blocking my number is that even if I text him he's not going to answer because he was blocking me so he would not even get my text messages. I didn't know what to do I was so lost I felt so alone. All I wanted was him to be the one the one guy I was going to spend the rest of my life with. I thought that I was going to get my happys ending with him, but now it was clear to me I was not going to get that with Michael. Someone else was, going to get the ended I have always wanted. I was no longer that lucky girl. This new girl he was In love with was going to get the happy ending I have always dreamed of having. I was alone once again in my life. And I don't think I have ever felt so lonely. I had just lost the love of my life. I might not of been the love of his life but he was sure the love of mine. I wanted to cry so bad but the shock I went into made me numb I did not have a frown on my face, I sat there blank. I looked kind of like I had just seen a ghost. No tears came out of my eyes I just sat there staring off into the distance. No words would come out of my mouth. I didn't know what to do my body was frozen right there I couldn't move. I didn't know what to do I have never felt this way before. It was the worst feeling I had ever felt in my entire life. Once again I was alone and I hated it.