Senior Year

I Can

Alex POV
Waking up in the morning felt like a hangover well I haven't actually had one but what I have heard yup it feels exactlyyyy like one. School. School. School. Getting closer to the bathroom sink and see myself in the mirror. I look like shit. My eyes are blood shot red. Thank you Dylan for everything! Did I deserve it? I can't even finish thinking that when I hear a voice coming from outside. I walk to my window and check. Yup I should've known. "What do you want Cameron. Don't you think it's to early for you to be screaming?"
"Well good morning to you to. Alex you look like shit!" He screams.
"I know." I say rubbing my eyes and laughing.

"Hurry up you going to miss the fucken bus?"

"Since when do you care if I catch the bus or nah?"

"I always do. Like that time I changed your alarm time so you woke up at 2 in the morning. See I cared I just gave you a heads up their."

"Haha very funny!" I say sarcasticly.

"Gotta go I have to take a shower because my hot ass stinks catch you later.

"Wait Alex?"

"What Cameron what now?" I was so tired that even talking to Cameron was irritating.
"Need anything you know where to find me."

"Okay now go take your 'hot ass' a shower." I say mocking Cameron.

"Fuck you"

"Thats the Cameron I know."

"Bye" Cameron said.
Finally I can take a warm shower will no interruptions. Its weird to think that my number one place to think is in the shower. Well anyways all I could think to myself is that these couple of months are not going to be easy. Hopefully I make it. As I wrapped the towel againts my body I first look at my stomach. What happen Alex! Who did this to. Tell me Alex! Are the only worlds that link in my head as touching every and each scare. I couldn't tell him it's too much too handle. As I passed my bathroom mirror I wait for a second then go back and seeing my back scare. Scared for life much.

Later on...

"Alexandra it's getting late start walking to the bus stop honey. Come on!" A voice for the kitchen screams.
"I'm going mom." It still feels weird calling her mom. Like it was the first time I called her that.
"Bye mom. I'm going to be late if I don't leave right now." I say placing a kiss on her cheek and running out the front door. Aaron did wait. uufff close one.
"Good morning Aaron." I say getting on the bus. Even if I was sad I couldn't let no one know.
"Good morning to you to." He said smiling. Can this day get any weirder. First Cameron says he's here and I know where to find him if I need something now Aaron is smiling at me he usually never does. As I find a seat. I sit on the same seat I seen Dylan in his sports car at the four lights (stop). Why does everything remind me of him. He was only in my life for a few months. I don't even think this much of my 'mom'. I put my ear phones on and lean my head on the window of the bus. I didn't have a phone but I had a little cheap mp3. Which I connect my earphones to and put them in my ears. All the sudden I felt a tear come down my cheaks. Im not as strong as I want to believe I am. As the bus got to school a got off and took a deep breath "this is going to be a long day." I whisper to myself.
"Hey Alex where have you been? It feels like forever." The voice is very familiar. Amy.
"Heyyyy. Don't want to talk my head hurts!"

"I guess someone woke up on the wrong side of the bed."

"Yes, yes I did."

"Any whom. Me and Zac are going on the road this spring break. Do you want to come? You can bring Dylan. We can all go. Spring break is coming up. Come on Alex, come on please for me." She said with her puppy eyes. I don't know how I'm going to tell her about Dylan. "Okay, okay I'll go but I'm not taking Dylan. Can I take someone else?" Fake smile. And lies.
"Why not Dylan. You are so..."
"I'm taking Cameron no questions. So shut it. And I can also take my camera to take some nice pics. You know the camera I stored years ago."
"Okay, okay." She said jumping of excitement.
"You have always loved photography I really don't know why you stopped."

True I don't even know myself. I guess capturing the moments we're just not me no more. Trying again won't hurt. "I know."
Thank God the bell rang before she ask anything else about Dylan. Walking in to Calculus class felt so horrible. He wasn't there. Okay this ain't like Twilight. As I sit I noticed that or better realize he was really gone. I tried but he didn't want to stay. Last week when we we're at his therapy session he said he wanted to be here forever. I hate that word. Nothing is forever!
"Good morning, students today Ill be giving each and one of you time to think about what your going to do for the assignment I gave you guys." Great more time to think.
The time to think I used it to sleep in till... Alex get up and work. You know your not going to get no where sitting there. I wake up immediately! I think I'm going crazy Dylan's voice is in my head no yeah I'm going crazy!
But finally the voice goes away right when the bell rang.

Second, third, fourth, fifth, sixth and seventh period pass by in a flash. At lunch Cameron wouldn't stop staring at me. Amy was with Zac which I didn't want to see hug, hug, kiss, kiss and even makeout scenes. So I decided to hangout alone. I would always hang out with Dylan but now I'm the biggest loner in this school. Great!

"Mom I'm home. I'm going to be in my room if you need anything."
"Okay Alex."
While I enter my room I see that there was a rock and my bed. All I could do is laugh. "Freaken Cameron." When me and Cameron we're about eight  we would always prank each other and his prank was always putting a  rock on my bed. I got closer to my window
"Cameron!"
Then a head comes out of his window. "Oh hey Alex."
"Shut up. Ill get you back watch!"
"Okay I'll watch."

   
     I just roles my eyes and left. I decide to spend my Monday night at home. Amy has called me more than 18 times. I just need time to think without no one interrupting.