Senior Year

Forgiven?

Alex's POV
"Take a seat. Please?" I do as asked. I sit in front of him with my blanket in my arms.
"Alex I need to explain many things. I know right now you might hate me so much. But just please hear me out." I nod in response as he continues. "I didn't run from us."
"But you..." I don't have the chance to finish my sentence when he interrupts me. "Alex just hear me out please." He said desperate
"I didn't run from us my unbological mother did." As we are facing each other he knows I'm way lost. He closes his eyes and sighs and continues. "She forced me to leave. She thought... " he said opening his eyes.
"Continue Dylan tell me."
"She thought you weren't good enough for me. She thought that our relationship you know what I mean our friendship in other words was going to quick..." It was her? Friendship! I couldn't argue with that one we were just friends with kiss benefits I guess. He never ask me to be his girlfriend.
"Alex I begged her to let me stay. I hate her for what she did to us. Trust me Alex I wanted to tell you but it was hard. I couldn't even look you in the eye when I left. When I got here to New York I was in so much pain without you. My mom ripped me out of your life as much as mine. After that I didn't care about anything or anyone. I-I stared using woman to forget about the sorrow. Girls and a bit of alcohol did it. It put my pain at ease. I stopped for a while intill... Tiffany. She texted me she was pregnant. The same day I texted you to see if you wanted to talk about 'us' and everything else she texted me. She always wanted me to love her. She begged for my love. But how was I going to love someone else when I was still in love with you. I tried to explain to her why I couldn't do all the relationship thing. I'm sorry, I'm telling you the details but you have a right to know. Alex I'm truly sorry. I'm always going to live with the guilt of hurting you. I'm really sorry Alex. I still love you. This shit won't go away. But I love you & I can't look at you without wanting to protect you from everyone but most of all myself." He finished saying with a crack in his voice wanting to cry. I was speechless. More like in shock. I couldn't believe it. "Alex please say something." He said while taking my hand in his. Electricity. Electricity was the only thing running through both of us. I love this guy so much. "Dylan?" Meanwhile I was in shock Dylan decided to look down and never look at me again. So I place my palm on his face. "Dylan? Look at me." I said now with my two palms placed on his face. And he does what I ask him to do.

"I understand now. I see the bigger picture. Dylan I forgave you since the day you left me. But you should've used no one. But out of this whole mess their's a little miracle on it's way. That baby is going to need you more than your parents, friends, Tiffany and even me. I'll wait Dylan. We, us can wait. You have many things on your plate that you have to figure out yourself. I can't help you. But when your done figuring it all out. I'm here. I will always be here no matter what."

The smile that his faced holded was bigger than the cat from Alice in Wonderland. He hugged me so tight that he ended up in hovering over me. Pulling a strand of hair from my face he said "I love you."
"I love you too."

Warning Sexual Tension! ⚠
(Now play the song.)

He tilted his head to match my lips perfectly. I couldn't wait any more I pushed my lips against his. We moved together in symphony. Until my frustration kicked in. I realized that I wanted him more than I ever wanted oxygen.

My hands slipped over to his T-shirt tugging on it to come off. My wishes came true I softly removed his shirt. Admiring his abs for a second. Reconnecting our lips together. I feel a bulge in my stomach. He wants this as bad as I do. Slowly as we moved he looks at me searching for permission to take me shirt off. I nod in response. This time he didn't question my scares for a second. He knew it was something hard for me to talk about and forever be. Uncovering the past was just not heathly for me.
"God Alex." Dylan said in a husky voice. while kissing my neck "You'r so beautiful!" he said right before he bit my neck. God!!!! I bit my lip so bad I think I made it bleed. But I didn't mind a minute of it. After we embraced each others upper body. We kept heading lower and lower. As we moved Dylan undoes my bra which leaves me exposed. "Dylan." I say moaning. As he starts kissing my lips and lowers the kisses in till he comes close to my sweats. He returns to me with his eyes wide open. "Alex? We don't have to do this right now. I can wait."
I nod in response making sure he understood that I wanted this. I wanted him. And with that, he unbuckled his pants. Making the bulge in his underwear more exposed. After he removed his pants he hovered over me once again. Kissing my lips one last time before removing my pants leaving me only in my undergarment. In till he softy removes it like I'm glass, fragile. Then he removes his. I swallow hard as I see what Dylan had. Oh God what the last words I was thinking in till he hovered over me again. "Dylan?" I whisper.
"Yeah."
"I-I'm scared. I have never you know."
"Don't worry I'm going to take care of you. If any moment you want to stop I will."
"Okay."
After he heard my response he reached for his pants pulling out protection for him.
Hovering over me once again he says "Its going to be okay I promise." And with those words my fear goes away. Slipping on the protection he settles in front of my entrance. Letting him in. I moan. Ally wasn't kidding it hurt more than ever. As we move faster every time the pain goes at ease. In till Dylan was at his last.

Laying next to me he tries catching his breath. "I love you Alex." He says while covering himself with some of my blanket and giving me a kiss on my forehead. "I love you too Dylan."

If you skipped all the tension your good to read now!

"Look their's the Big Dipper." Dylan points out. After we got dressed we decided to lay down and see the stars. For the time we had left. Three more days with this guy. Life couldn't get any better.

As I checked the time I blurt out  
"Dylan we have to go before anyone suspects we left."
"Okay." He responded sadder than I did when he left. As we picked up the blanket and folded it we held hands on our way back. In till we got to the door. We had to let go. I know this was going to happen but it's just for now I guess. "I love you Alex. Don't doubt that a second if we're hear or any other place. Just remember that." He sure always knew how to make me blush. "I love you to Dylan." As we snuck back in the two story house. We both go our separate ways. "Alex?" Dylan whispers from down stairs. "What?"
"I love you. Goodnight." I blush at the words once again. It's weird how three words have so much affect on you.