You Left Me (Louis Tomlinson FanFiction) EDITING IN PROGRESS

Chapter 9

A/N - Vas up all my awesome readers! This is chapter 9 and I hope you enjoy it because it took me a while to write this up! Thanks :) xoxo

 He hugs me back soothingly and stroke my hair down with his chin sitting on top of my head. He keeps whispering "it's ok" again and again and him doing that same action makes my heart race a million miles a second. My subconscious reminds me that I shouldn’t be doing this but I push that thought away to the back of my mind. This might only be the last time I see him… he meant so much to me, more than anyone could ever know. I hang onto him for a long time until finally I let go of him.

I look up at him timidly, feeling ashamed of my actions from before then now. This morning feels like it's been days. It's surprising how everything could… well, probably could… change in a day. I feels like it's up to me now to decide where I want to go from here. He looks down at me, his grey-blue eyes full of concern, tenderness, relief and maybe… love? No, correction, lust. 

He has a girlfriend… remember that Megs. None of us said anything and we kept gazing into each other's eyes. It went for what seems like forever but I would relive this moment over and over again if I could.

"Umm… Lou, I am sorry for…" I started but got interrupted by him.

"No! Never ever say sorry to me! It was all my fault! Ok?"

"No Lou, I mean most of it was mine… I guess… a part of me was… selfish…"

"No! Never Megs! I left you… I know that… but I guess I didn’t know there was going to be so much damage done from it… you getting bullied most of all. I never wanted to leave you… you know it was for my father's job… right?" he questions and I nod.

"That’s why I said I was… selfish. I never thought about it from your point of view… all that was in my head is that you left me…"I replied looking down at the ground, thinking about how Lou hates his father since he was little. His father was really strict… mostly at what Louis does. He didn’t want him hanging out with me at the beginning because he wanted his son to be a 'man'. But nothing separated me and Louis… until he moved away of course. He even tried to take Lou's singing away… His father is a businessman and wanted Louis to take after him but what Louis cared about the most was music. That’s also why I was really happy for Lou when he auditioned for X-Factor… because he went up the stage… standing up for himself. That memory brought tears to my eyes and I look at the ground shattered and proud at the same time.

He held my chin up slowly, forcing me to look at his beautiful eyes. He touch my cheeks and wiped down my tears gently. His touch sent shivers down my body… even though I know I can't be his again… I still wanted to be. We still have eye contact throughout this but he broke our contact abruptly.

"So… are we still up for Star Bucks?... Hot chocolate with extra marshmallows?" he asked smirking a bit. I couldn’t help but chuckle at his question and nod. It feels like everything that happened five years ago was just yesterday. I think I've forgiven him for everything because I didn’t understand his situation before… but now I really do and also because I was… selfish.

He could be a worldwide singing superstar, but to me… he's the same Louis that I met in kindergarten. He wasn’t conceited and up himself like I thought all those famous people are. He is still the same funny, adorable and weird boy I met… he is still my best friend even though I am not sure that I am his. He hasn’t changed personality-wise one bit… except that he has a girlfriend… who is not me.

He wrapped his long and warm hand around my shoulder as we started to walk and it makes my heart leap… it makes me feel safe and protected. I wish that he could be here with me forever… but I know that at one point, he will have to go and all this will be just like a dream.

"So how has everything been for you?" I begin.

"Good but terrible," he replied.

"What do you mean?"

"My singing career is finally here... that's the good part," he said and I smiled. He seem to have frozen a bit so I pushed on.

"Yeah... and what's so terrible about it?"

"Because... I was missing something," he sighed.

"Missing what Lou? You've got everything you need. The career you wanted and people who loves and supports you," especially your girlfriend, I add mentally.

"All of them, the fans, love me for who they see me as... they don't really know who I am inside..."

"Oh. What about your band? Do they know you?"

"I guess they do sort of... but no one knows me as well as..." he trailed off into the space and stopped walking.

"As well as who Lou?" I asked on wishing that it wouldn't be his girlfriend and probably... me?

He let go of his hands that were on my shoulders and transferred them onto both of my hands. His hands somehow makes me feel protected. We are face to face now... only a few inches apart from each other.

"As well as you Megs... No one knows me as well as you." he said looking into my eyes.

A/N - Sorry to leave you hanging there guys! I promise I will update really soon!! Remember to only vote IF YOU LIKE IT!!! Thanks once again little marshmallows! xx