A/N - I don't even know what to say because I am feeling apologetic, happy and frustrated! Apologetic because I haven't updated for a while... and happy because my wifi is backkkk! And also because of all you amazing readers of course! And frustrated because of the stupid spacing thing! I am sorry if it looks retarded! Thanks again :) xoxo
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Lou sat between El and I… and I can just sense how awkward this would be. Well, bring it on and let's see what happens because you only get one chance in life so live it to the fullest everyday. Or every seconds for this matter.
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*Eleanor's POV*
I swear I can sense the awkwardness between us three. I know that Megs is only Lou's step-sister but it somehow doesn’t feel like it. And I know I am supposed to be Lou's 'acting' girlfriend… but there's something that no one knows, maybe except for the fans… is that I actually like him. It's just that I can't tell him that after all this time. How the hell am I supposed to tell him? We already established with each other that we had no love interest towards each other… but that was before my feelings started to grow. I hate this. My feelings I mean.
I feel Lou's arms snaking across my shoulders and my cheeks flush. Luckily, the room is dark except for the TV screen with the red curly haired girl shooting arrows. I feel like I do belong under his arms somehow… but my glee faded a little since I see him doing to same to his step-sister. I feel the big lump of jealousy in my heart. Oh my goodness Eleanor, They are only freaking step-siblings, calm down… I feel disgusted with myself for even thinking that. Eww. I scrunch my nose at my own thoughts.
"You okay El?" I hear him speak from my left.
"Huh? Yeah, why?" I smile back sweetly.
"Oh, nothing… you just look a bit distracted, that’s all."
"Okay…" I say as I snuggle further onto his broad shoulder.
We stayed quiet for the rest of the movie, me with confused thoughts swivelling around me… about us… Lou and I. Would he actually have feelings for me beyond this act for publicity? How would he react to my feelings towards him? And I am pretty sure this step-siblings thing with Megs is just natural. Not a coincidence for when I just started feeling attracted towards my 'acting' boyfriend… right? These are way confusing. Feelings and jobs shouldn’t mix at the first place. I am blaming it all on my stupid feelings.
I was snapped out of my thoughts when I heard him yawn and the lights start turning back on. I look to my lap to find my slices of pizza, untouched at all.
"You sure you're okay El? You haven't eaten anything…" Lou speaks my thoughts aloud.
"Mmhmm… I think I should go now, I really am tired…" I stretch as I stand up.
"You can stay here for the night if you want?" he offers. Oh I would love to more than anything… but I wouldn’t be able to control my feelings towards him any further. I can't. I won't.
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You Left Me (Louis Tomlinson FanFiction) EDITING IN PROGRESS
FanficPromises... they can be easily made and easily broken at such a young age. As years go by, things change, people change. Can promises change? NOTE!! This is the first ever book/story I've written and I can't bring myself to delete this so... read my...
