I'll miss you... (Monsta X fanfiction)

Chapter 23~ No!

Seungyeon pov:

Today is the day i'm getting discharge. Some part of me is excited some part of me is sad since i'm leaving this hospital. I was packing my bag when i heard a knock. I spun around to see Dr Joong Mu standing at my door. "I'm sorry to tell you that Kihyun's dead." i dropped my bag and it echoed throughout the cold room.

"So y-you mean he's g-gone?" I stammered. I looked down to my hands as it trembled real hard. Cold sweat broke on my face. "Yes. I'm really sorry to tell you" he looked down. I was so angry that smoke could come out from my ears. I ran up to him and i grabbed his collar and push him to the wall harshly.

"I knew i couldn't trust you!" and i hit him another time. Glasses of tears trickled down my cheeks as it hit the cold ground. My heart pounded like as if i could die right now. My strength become softer as i fell to the ground. Covering my face with my hands as i cried. "I couldn't say goodbye again" and i hit the nearest wall.

"AHHHHHHHH!!!! I HATE MY LIFE!!! KILL ME NOW!!" and i ran around the room pushing stuffs down from it's original place. "STOP! I'M SORRY! HE DIDN'T HAVE ANY TIME!!!" he pulled me away when i was banging my head against the wall. "Let me go!" and i push him away harshly. "I hate you!"

I took my bag and Precious as i stomped out from the room. I rushed into my van and slammed the door shut. "Hey you o-" i cut her off. "Drive" i boldly say. She nodded and quickly sped of to our building. After we reached it, i threw my bag at the couch and locked myself in my room.

I put Precious on her bed. I was really upset. Who wouldn't be upset if you didn't get to say your last goodbye to both of your favourite person on earth. I couldn't hold it. I should have followed them. I took the razor blade again. "I'm sorry oppa. I broke your promise again" and i cut a line through my skin.

The sharp blade pierced through my skin as the old wound had opened up. Adding more blood into it. Precious was just crying all the way. "I'm sorry baby. I couldn't take care of you" i carresed Precious cheeks as she sobbed. The door bust open to reveal my oppa standing there, shocked written all over his face.

"SEUNGYEON! WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!" he threw the blade away as i just cry a river. "Mian oppa. Chinja mianhae" i covered my face with my hands as i cried onto it. "Come here. We have to treat your hand. Yooni ah! Please take care of Precious! I'll take care of Seungyeon!" and he pulled me up and push me to the couch.

Gyuri rush in with a first aid kid as she treat my wound. "You cut into your hand too deep. I couldn't stop the bleeding" worried looks washed over all my unnies face. "I'm not going back to the hospital. It will make me remember of Kihyun." I shook my head violently. "But we have no choice." Gyuri said.

"I said no means no" i pulled my hand away as i tighten the bandage. I winced from the force as tears started to form in my eyes again. "Agh!" I throw the first aid kid and ruffled my hair in frustration. Blood gushing out from my hand as i was dizzy for a moment. No! Stay focus Seungyeon! I took a new set of bandage and wrapped it around my wound and tighten it as hard as i can. Droplets of blood still dripping but at least i get to stop the bleeding. "I hate my life. Why do god always like to take away the people i love the most?" I mumbled to myself.

"It means god love them so much he had to keep hem beside him so they wouldn't get hurt again. All of us will die" Eunbyeol came up to me and pat my back. "Thanks guys for helping me" i smiled weakly as i trudged my way to my room. I look to my bed to see Precious sleeping silently. "I'm sorry baby. I won't do it again. I'll try. Promises are meant to break aren't it?"

Kihyun pov:

I went out of the hospital as fast as i could before Seungyeon could see me. I told Xiao to take care of her for the 5 years i'm gone and be agreed. He promised me not to tell her. I really trust him. I went in the airport and the cold air rush past me as i shivered in coldness. The plane finally arrived and we're off to America. I hope this works. I'll always love you Seungyeon and my little Precious. And i kissed the picture we took together during the dance. Tears fell to the picture smudging it a little. I wiped it off and put it on my necklace. I rubbed it before drifting of to sleep.

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I was listening to Bts Butterfly while writing the bottom part and i actually cried