I'll miss you... (Monsta X fanfiction)

Chapter 14~ Baddest dream

Seungyeon pov:

I'm in the hospital waiting for Kihyun to finish his treatment. Everything's the same. Same old screaming. The pain in his screams is just so heartbreaking. I couldn't hold it and sooner or later i broke down. They've already told the fans about his conditions and some fans gone wild while some prayed for him.

After about a decades in there the nurse push his bed outside and i followed them to his room. His pale and wrinkled skin is making me feel that happiness is much more expensive than sadness. My mom and Kihyun is both sick as fuck. Probably my mom would not wake up. The doctors told me not to visit her because they're gonna do a check up to see how long is she gonna live. Now looking at Kihyun with tubes all over his head and body. His cold icy hands is getting colder everytime i touch it. His hair is slowing falling off, it's totally heart breaking to even watch it. He still look handsome with this kind of symptoms on him. He'll always be handsome to me.

The members sooner or later the members. It's awkward for me and Changkyun so i sat outside at the waiting room. Covering my face with my hands as i cried my balls out. I don't know what to do if they're both gone. I'll be left with oppa only. And i also wouldn't want him to go. I love my family so much even though we fight sometimes. I decided to go home and rest my mind. I got pushed around by his fans and mine and it's so difficult to walk to my van. I put on my fakest smile and continued walking as reporters keep on asking me question. "What if your boyfriend left you?" that question made my heart ache more. I bit my lips in order to stop myself from crying. The security guards push all of them away and i finally got in my van. I sigh a relief as i got to escape the frenzy paparazzi.

I close my windows with the blinds and pop in my earpiece. I on the Bts newest album ITMFL pt2. I was listening to Crow tit when we've arrived. I walked out and rush in the building so i couldn't get caught with the fans. After i got in my dorm, i throw my bag at the couch as i plop on it. *ding* It's practice time. Where are you? Eunbyeol messaged me. I sighed as i changed into an oversized t-shirt and sweat pants and paired it off with my vans. I took my phone and walk to the practice room. "Sorry i'm late. I just got back from visiting my mom" i apologise as they just smile. "Come on. We have a concert at Music Bank next week and we need to get ready" Eunbyeol say as she started playing the song. We nodded and got into position. Next week we're gonna film our new song called 'One sided'.

I wrote the song when I was in elementary school. The unnies help me change the lyrics a little. It's a ballad song. We've done recording the song yesterday as we're learning the choreography tomorrow. We started dancing and singing all over for 4 hours straight. We pant as we gulped down the water. "2 more hours before going home" i look over to my watch to see it's already 10pm. Great. We continued for 3 hours to be honest since we always made mistakes. We were totally worn out. We shuffle our way to our dorm.*growl*. I hold my stomach as it's too painful. I feel like the liquid is slowly going up to my throat. After we reached the dorm, i ran to the bathroom and started vomiting. Lizzy got surprised. She stood behind me as she pat my back.

"Gwenchana?" she asked. I wiped the barf away as i accidentally burped. "Yeh. I'm fine" i smiled weakly. She put her hand on my forehead as she frowned. "You're hot" i laugh a little. "Not that hot idiot" she smiled. "Come on and lie down. I'm gonna take a cold rag and some pills" she said. "But i haven't wash up yet" i pout. *cough cough*. "Shut up and listen to me" i glare at her. She walked out and grabbed the stuffs. I don't wanna get sick. I don't want to be a burden to anyone. Ugh gawd. Finally Lizzy came back with the stuffs. She put on the rag as i eat the pill. "It's gonna be fine. You just have a fever and probably you got dizzy from the dancing and singing. You should have told us and not push you around. Tomorrow we're gonna learn our new choreography. You think you can handle?" she asked. "Yes. I can handle. It's just a fever. I'm fine. And i don't want to be a burden to you guys"