The Way He Ties His Sweatshirts (a Louis Tomlinson/1D fanfiction)

#TWHTHS chapter 10

chapter 10

SOPHIE'S POV

Oh, how I wanted him. I needed Louis' body next to mine, his arms wrapped strongly around me as I traced the tattoos on his beautiful chest. He had gotten many more since the last time I touched him, and I felt a beating desire to run my hands over every one of them. I just needed him... now.

It was hard enough to control myself while talking to him, but then he asked to dance... to our song. I'm sure he planned that. My hands desired to explore every inch of his beautiful body, but I knew I couldn't do that.

Needless to say, I was feeling a little confused.

After we finished dancing, I had run to the bathroom and cried. Why did he always make me feel like this? I was a girl who was used to being in control. Almost all of my relationships were ended by me. I was always the one in power.

And even though I was the one who ended it with Louis, I felt like I wasn't in control... something else was the driving force between us, and I hated it. He made me feel weak and I couldn't understand why.

Looking around at the other beautiful women in the bright bathroom, I wondered if any of them had the same kind of feelings I did. I wonder if they've ever contemplated something they've done and second-guessed themselves.

I ignored my heart, which was telling me to go back there to Louis, then make up and make out. But he hardly seemed to feel like I did right now. He appeared to be very uncomfortable around me.

My mind was cluttered with stray thoughts of Lou's smile and laugh. I frowned at my reflection, knowing that I would never again be in pictures with him. I would never be his "mystery lover" or "special lady" ever again. I shook my head to clear my brain.

My hand reached for the knob of the sink and I let myself splash a little cool water onto my face. My nerves calmed instantly, leaving me feeling refreshed. I could handle this.

Louis probably meant nothing to me... I just hadn't seen him in a while and my senses were on overload. I'll just ignore him from now on, and I should be fine.

I pushed all the thoughts of him out of my head, took a deep breath, put on a smile, and walked out of the ladies room... right into Harry.

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I bet all those girls had felt the same exact way before... by the way, if you're ever having guy problems, inbox me. I'm no therapist but I've had my fair share of guy problems. Even if you just need to rant about something that happened to you at school today or something... I'll be here. Just inbox me, any time, and I'll try to help you out the best I can! Love you all :)

xx @boobearthesassmaster