Senseless

Chapter Thirty-Six

Dear Miley,

It has officially been a month. 5 weeks. How are you? How much has changed in your life? I would love to hear back from you and I would also love if you asked me questions. No pressure. I will love you either way.

I know that I could easily find out how you are doing by asking a few people that are close to you but I can't bring myself to do it. I can't because I am afraid of the truth. You could have completely moved on for all I know. You could have gotten together with someone else and be living happily ever after. I mean, I want you to live happily ever after but I only want that to be with me. I know I can be over bearing and jealous but it is because I love you so much. I can't control myself. I am possessive and in my mind you are still mine but at the moment you are missing in time.

Thinking that you are just missing and could come back at any given moment is the only way in which I can truly move forward in my everyday life. I know it isn't right but it is the only thing that I can do in order to continue to live. Missing you is like living in hell and I hope that you never have to experience something like this.

I wish I had more things to write in this letter. I do want you to know that at any time, you can write me back but you don't have to. All that I hope for is that you read my letters and that you know I miss you.

I'm sorry.

Jason.