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The Last Confession (JiKook Angst)

Dear Jungkook,

How are you doing? Must be very happy. Yesterday, I saw you and him strolling in the park, all happy and lovey dovey. You must be surprised to recieve this letter, and you must have feel disgusted too. Right, why would an ex-boyfriend write to his ex? Never mind, forget it. You will not see me around anymore.

If you have the decency to read until the end, please do it. If you don't, I am just going to be crystal clear: I'm dying. This will definitely be the last time I do this to you.

Do you still remember our first meeting? About 15 years ago? Right, you won't bother to remember it, it must be an embarrassed memory to you. Anyway, you were holding an ice-cream cone, and I was holding two balloons. And there he came, knocking into you with his tricycle, making you drop your cone. You started crying, so I gave you one of my balloons. As an apology, he lent you his tricycle. I still remember the way you tied the balloon on the backseat of the tricycle and cycled around the park.

I can't forget your bright smile.

Do you still remember that pretty autumn evening? Under that oak tree, I confessed to you. You were horrified, and kept saying something like "it's not correct for boys to like boys, what do I do" etc. While you were being hesitant, he came around and you two went off to play basketball together. That was the first time I felt heartbroken, but not for long. But then with yohr beautiful smile, you asked me to tag along. Do you know how happy I was?

Time passed, we grew so much. We three were still best friends, but then one summer by the seaside, you accidentally blubbered out your feelings. You told me that you have liked me for many years. He teased you, but neither of us minded. Oh Jungkook, I will never forget that gorgeous tint of pink on your cheeks.

We started. First date, first hand holding, first kiss. We were so happy together, we were going to get married even, but then cruel fate played with us. Wrong, fate played with me.

So that day, you found me with another girl, making out fiercely. I am sorry, Kookie, I am so sorry, I have never feel so sorry before. When I saw the look in your eyes, I knew I messed up big time. The moment you turned away, I parted with that girl and apologised to her. She is my cousin. That's right, everything was an act. I don't want to hurt you anymore, because I love you more than anything.

You called, we fought, we broke up. Then I disappeared from your life. Well not really, since I was stalking you all the time. I saw how you turned to him for comfort, and how he comforted you. It was full of love. From that moment, I knew you two are going to end up together. I am so genuinely happy for you, Kookie.

Okay, now excuse me for calling you that silly nickname, because I won't be able to call you that anymore. Do you know what inspires me to write this letter? Your wedding invitation. Right, I got it from one of my friends. I am fabulous, I know. Haha.

Now enough of the nonsense, Kookie. I want you to know the truth now. I am very sick, with a kind of disease you won't want to know. And I am going to undergo a surgery tomorrow, there is only 5% chance of me surviving. I am so sorry for hurting you like that, I don't want to see you hurt even more. Be happy with him. Don't be sad over me, I know you won't. But if you do, don't do stupid things. At least you have to stay strong for Tae, kay?

Be happy with Tae. You have my full blessings. But still Kookie, I want to confess one last time. If I don't do so, I am afraid I won't ever be able to do so. I love you. I love you more than anything in the world. I love you to Pluto and back. I love you, Kookie.
Now before everything become too cheesy and pathetic, I should end. Remember, if you are happy, I will be happy. Don't miss me.

I bet you won't.

Yours sincerely,
Jimin.

PS: I love you so much.

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Omg sorry for not updating I am so busy with school at the moment. Hope this is angsty enough. :D

And yes, the he is Taehyung.

I really hope I can have more time to write :))

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