Moving On (BoyxBoy) UNEDITED

Chapter four



Hi ya I'm Jake. Zander's best friend and ex boyfriend or well at least I was until he ran away. It's probably all my fault if only I knew how to say no. You've probably hear some nice and mean things about me and I probably deserve them all. I deserve worse. He would only say anything nice about me cause we were together for over a year. Then Zoey came back. She ruined everything for us. But I can't help but miss her; I never even really got to talk to her. I wanted to though; the pain she carried was clear in her eyes. I noticed it the moment I saw her beautiful face. Not that I liked her or anything but it was definitely true. Part of me wants to hate her for breaking us up and the other part realizes that it was for the best because no matter what I did I would never be able to make him forget her. What they had was special.

As you probably heard I was getting "funky" with a girl, as Zander would put it, when he stopped by after Zoey's funeral. But what he doesn't know is that she had me pinned down. I am in case you were wondering very weak. I can barely lift ten pounds and can only run half of a lap in gym class. So naturally it wasn't hard for that slut to pin me down and unfortunately I couldn't get her off. Unlike guys girls don't have easy weak spots to hit when your being pinned down. Of course I did get her off eventually by setting a recording of my mom talking off on my phone. I had never been so glad that she thought she was funny enough to be recorded.

But Zander didn't stick around long enough for me to explain and he wouldn't answer his phone. So if I never see him again he'll never know the truth. Maybe I should go out and look for him. It couldn't really hurt I guess. But I have no idea where I would even begin my search. He's never talked about traveling or anything before.

Knowing him he's probably somewhere small and isolated, like moose pass but not in Alaska. It's probably somewhere that I would never think of as being small or isolated and most likely along the western coast. But where could that be? It's probably not Washington or Oregon they sound kinda small. Maybe California but I doubt that it would just be way too obvious. But just where in California is the question. Surely it wouldn't be close to LA or Hollywood. I think I'm going to have to do some research on this one; I might have a trail to follow. I might be getting my love back before I know it.

My love? Did I seriously just say that? I guess I truly do still love him underneath it all. He's the only one I've ever felt this comfortable with and I'm sure I wouldn't go and track down anyone else if they ran away. Maybe it's like they say falling in love with your best friend is the best love there is. It's true no matter what you already have a stable foundation in which to build on. Plus you already know so much about them it's easier to let yourself fall. At least once you know that they feel the same way about you.

Unfortunately for me I have no idea what Zander's feeling right now. Probably hurt or missing Melody. I can't believe I've lost my sweet and wonderful Zander to a girl who ignored him his whole life. I mean it was understandable for Zoey to ignore him. She didn't remember who he was because she hit her head. But Melody knew who he was her whole life and ignored him. I swear to god if she doesn't tell him what she did then I will.

He deserves the truth and that's what he's going to get even if it's ugly. No one deserves to be used abuse or played with like that. Especially not my Zander. Key word my not hers. Mine. I'm not giving up on our love yet and I hope that he hasn't either. Although the chances are slim until he learns the whole and real truth about what's happened. Not the truth he got from the little his eyes could see. I love him and love triumphs over all. Like they say all's fair in love and war. So Melody better be ready because this war over Zander is officially on. Once of course I find him and tell him the truth. All I need now is some evidence to prove my side of the story and a way to keep Melody from beating me there. Lucky for me I use to be an evil mind master and this should be easy. But seriously this should be fun. I can't wait to get my Zander back if I can.

Zander's POV

Stereotypes never change no matter where you are. These people make the jocks in my town seem pleasant to live with but trust me they are nowhere near pleasant. Why is it always me thinking that things will be different this time? Ever thing will always be the same. I will always love and miss Zoey, I'll never get over Jake and I'll always have some feelings for Melody. Although I'm not quite sure about Melody yet. I think there might be something she is hiding from me. But I don't know for sure. I haven't exactly talked to her since I left.

I wish I had someone to talk to about all of this. Jake would understand. But he's hurt me and I don't know if I'm ready to forgive him. I don't know if I'll ever be. I recall one time talking to him about where we would go if we ever ran away together. I said I would go into a small town along the west coast that way there's no time change or anything. I can see it now. We at this point were seven months into our dating relationship. I was lying on his bed using the head board as a back prob. And my beautiful boyfriend, I was so glad to be able to call him mine, was cuddled into me resting he's delicate head on my chest. I could feel his heart beating against my chest, and I knew that he was calmly listening to my racing heart. His touch seemed to send my heart on a wild race against time. I was twirling soft strands of his dyed hair when he brought up the question. It was just a simple where would we go if... kind of question but it sent my racing heart even faster. He was serious about me. I answered as he started at me with his big blue eye. Soon a small smile creeped its way across his face. My lips instantly turned up into a smile reflecting his own. The question wasn't much but I felt so much closer to him after he asked. I felt myself fall even more for him; which had seemed to be impossible until it happened. I asked him a 'what would we do if...' question hoping that he would have the same feelings that I had just experienced. By the lights in his eyes I knew my plan was a success. he had felt it too. Tear welled up in our eyes; we hugged each other tighter and cried tears of joy into each other's shoulders. Though this would be the last time we ever felt that close. A few days after I got the news of Zoey's return the news that ruined our relationship and change my life.

It had been a little piece of heaven before she came along. But I won't blame her for the way things turned out. I guess they were supposed to be like this all along. This is probably God's way of punishing me for being gay. Take away all my happiness. Tear my heart apart. But why? That's all I really want to know. Why would God put me on this earth just to hate me? That doesn't make any sense. He teaches and preaches love and acceptance. So shouldn't all the religious people be running around trying to make me feel accepted? But apparently the human race isn't evolved enough for stuff like this.



Jake's POV

Here being different is a crime. The earth is a jail house for those who don't fit the 'norm'. It's a hell that we have to live in everyday. A place where although we get promised freedom we are anything but free. It's a giant trap. We can't speak our minds, get married or love in public without someone attacking us. We can't dress how we want or believe what we want. We aren't what we could be because we aren't allowed to be. But if you have someone by your side that you love you can forget this. Without Zander this is all my life is. But with him it was so much more. I just wish I could have that back.