Moving On (BoyxBoy) UNEDITED

Chapter fifteen

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Zina

Zander's POV

It's been days since I sent that letter and no progress has been made. I hadn't really expected there to be much just something more than this. I promised I would fight for him, but he's making it so hard. How am I supposed to fight for him if he's fighting back? It's too soon to give up but I just wish he would give me some hint about what he's thinking.

Melody still goes over there regularly, but she says he's been distracted lately. He's been zombie like. The last time I saw him like that was when I kissed him for the first time. I remember that day like it was yesterday. It was the first time I had felt love.

Flashback

"Jake, I have to talk to you. It's important, to us and to our friendship." I said in a soft voice.

I was nervous, I was about to tell him my biggest and darkest secret. I didn't know whether he would accept it, agree with it or hate me for life. But I couldn't keep it inside anymore. I couldn't hide the attraction anymore. But why would he agree with me? He could have any girl he wanted, why would he want his male friend. Why would he want to go through all the torture when he could be perfectly happy with some girl? Besides he didn't even know how I felt about him, or that I was even bi. There was no way he felt that way.

"You know you can tell me anything, even if you think it's not what I want to hear. I'll listen, that's what friend are for." he replied his voice slightly quivering with fear that he was trying to hide.

"What if I said I don't want to be friends anymore?" I challenged.

"I would wish you a good life and tell you that I understand." He said meekly, his voice shaking, his eyes watering.

"And what if I said I wanted to be more then friends?" I continued.

By that point I was so lost in what he meant that I didn't even bother coming up with an idea. I decided that it would be easier just to carry on with this conversation, even though it didn't make much sense to me.

"I would ask you what you meant by that" was his mild response. It didn't give me any hope that he felt the same way but I wasn't backing down now. I had to do this.

"And what if I could show you better than I could tell you?"

"Then show me" was all he got out of his mouth before mine attached to it.

He didn't respond for a few moments. He pulled away his eyes wild and confused. I tried to hide the hurt I was feeling. I tried to hide just how rejected I was feeling. But I knew that I was failing.

"Zander...." he started

"Yeah" I replied meekly

"Why did you kiss me?" He blurted. I was completely aware of how close he was to me. I wasn't expecting him to ask me that. I didn't know how to respond. After a few moments of my silence I saw him start to draw into himself. He was thinking about something and it was bothering him.

"Jake?" I whispered trying to get his attention. He nodded his head emotionlessly I tried again and again but that was the only response I got. I wasn't sure how to get his attention back, but I knew I had to keep trying. I had to do something drastic that would defiantly get his attention. I moved closer to him, he made no response. I moved him onto my lap but he still didn't respond. I wasn't sure what else I could do without invading his space.  But I had to try something.

I leaned in lightly and let my lips brush against his. He responded, suddenly and without warning. The kiss soon lost its innocence but it didn't get far before I pulled away.