Defiance (Kylo Ren Fanfiction)

Chapter Eleven

A/N: I made an insagram account as well, @starwarsaesthetics

When I open my eyes, I feel hot. Darkness surrounds me, and I call out for someone. Within seconds light appears, and Leia is by my side.

"Leia, I'm sorry. I just," I sigh, "I blame myself for all of this. So much has been happening. My home was destroyed, I saw Ben again, and I think... I think I'm falling in love with him. But I'm a target now, we all are. I used the force, I was able to see what happened that night."

Leia looks at me, "Tell me what happened."

"I was showing him the lightsaber my dad got me, he was envious. I brought up his father again, Han. And he pulled out his lightsaber as well. Except, his was red..." I begin to sob, "If I wasn't so focused on myself I'd see the pain he was enduring! God, I'm such an asshole."

"Han is dead." Leia tells me.

"Han is what?" I gasp.

"He's dead. Ben killed him." Leia looks away, and I go and grab for her hand. I was unable to because of my restraints.

"Leia, I'm sorry. I know you loved him."

"And I know you love Ben. I thought maybe his father could fix this. But he's in so deep, only someone he knows, someone he truly loves can save him now."

I frown, "I don't think he wants to see me. And I've already been hurt so much."

"You do what you think is right," She looks away, releasing my restraints. Neither of us spoke to each other after that. Instead, we went separate ways. She went to be by herself, I went to go find Maz.

There she was, twiddling her thumbs. She looks nervous, "Oh! Krista! Are you okay!"

"Maz, I'm fine. I don't know what got into me yesterday. My anger got the best of me."

She shakes her head, "That's what I fear most. Next time it might consume you."

"Maz, I just found out that I was brainwashed. And that Kylo, I mean Ben, was my best friend. AND he just killed his own father! There is so much happening!" I just can't wrap my head around all of this.

"Okay, I understand. But we need you to start training as soon as possible. This could get dangerous." She explains.

I nod my head in agreement, and I grab her hand, "I won't let you down Maz."

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When we finally get back home, the sky is dark, and I feel sleepy. Maz and I hardly spoke the entire walk home. I decide to head to bed without saying goodnight. I know she worries about me. I worry about me too.

When I next open my eyes, my surroundings have change. I'm back at the StarKiller base, in my old bed. The sheets are soft, and I want them around me forever. Except, when I try and move, an arm keeps me in place. I look over beside me and Kylo was sleeping next to me. His chest was bare, and a scar was etched his face. I reach out to touch it, but his hand was quicker.

"Don't," he whispers.

"Kylo," I whisper back, his eyes flutter open. God he's so beautiful. I watch as he takes my hand and kisses it softly, and intertwine his hand with mine.

"Kiss me," he pleads, scrunching his eyes. He seems in pain, and I want to help him. I lean down and kiss him. Softly, as if he was the most fragile thing in the galaxy. A soft moan escapes my lips as he pulls my closer against his bare chest. My body is small against his, and I press my lips harder.

"I wish we could do this forever," he sighs, his lips leaving mine.

"Kylo, we could if you just-"

"No, I will never leave the darkside." He screams through clenched teeth.

"Kylo, please." I plead.

"It's time for you to go," he huffs, "I've kept you here for too long. I'm going to get in so much trouble from this"

"Kylo what are you talking about?" I ask him.

"Just kiss me again before you go."And I do just that.

When I wake up again, I'm back at my place, Maz is cooking something outside. That dream, it was so vivid and his lips. Oh god, I want to go back.

"Sleep well?" Maz interrupts my thoughts. I nod.

"Yeah, yeah I slept great." She smiles, and I stuff my face back into my pillow.

I was unsure of what today would bring, but I know I need to do something about Kylo. He killed Han, and I need to do something quick. Leia had informed me that the Star Killer base has been destroying several planets, and ours is on the list for planets to come. Which makes me extremely nervous. Kylo would never kill me, right? I want to talk to him, reason with him. None of this is fair. I want things to be normal. I wish I never knew him, that I was a nobody. Sadly, that's not possible.

"Maz," I sigh, "I need to talk to him again."

"I know you do. Let's go talk to Leia about a plan okay?"

"Okay." These next few days are either going to go really well, or really bad.

A/N: Please don't be mad at me for this being a super short chapter. I got really lazy, and ended up just making this a filler. Next chapter will be better! I promise! Thanks for reading.