#sadlife » yoonmin [texting]

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Longest chapter tho

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"H-hyung?" Yoongi lifts his head immediately, after hearing the familiar voice calling for him and he groans as he recognized the boy in front him. "Fuck off, Namjoon."

"Why are you here..?" Namjoon doesn't even response to Yoongi, as he sat down next to him on the bench, "is everything okay, did you cry?"

"Go." The older growls before hiding his face again, hiding it from the other boy. He is so tired, he just wants to sleep and doesn't feel like having a conversation, especially not with his ex. "Leave me alone!"

"Hyung.. i'm sorry about everything really I won't bother you anymore, I promise. I've accepted that I made some shit ass mistakes and I'm over you." Namjoon responses honest, saying everything that was bothering him the last few weeks.

"Go Namjoon, I want to be alone." Yoongi hisses, not even looking at Namjoon as he doesn't really care what the other had to say.

"Can't we maybe forget the past and be friends?"

The older looks to his left where the other boy sits, looking at him with a desperate expression on his face. He changed, he really did. But Yoongi doesn't care.

"I don't care." He Responses coldly, "I have other problems right now."

"The reason why you cried?" Yoongi immediately looks at Namjoon and coughs. "I didn't cry."

"No of course not." Namjoon says sarcastic, "wanna talk about it?"

"Actually not." It got silent for a moment, as Yoongi thought about what happened earlier. The imagination of his boyfriend and the guy, kissing in his room. His heart starts hurting again, the pain in his chest getting bigger and bigger with every thought of Jimin.

"Maybe it will make you feel better?"

"What? To talk with my ex about my boyfriend cheating on me just like my ex did?" Yoongi raises an eyebrow as th younger looks down at his hands.

"I'm sorry, I'm an asshole."

"Oh you finally got it."

"The boy who opened the door for me, is that your boyfriend?" Namjoon asks unsure, changing the subject and trying to look Yoongi in the eyes, but the older avoids his glance.

"Yeah." He answers, feeling the pain in his chest growing as he thinks about Jimin again. His beautiful eye smile, his chubby cheeks, the dark brown eyes that looked at him with such a lovely expression, his soft hands, his pleasant touches and his lips - his perfect lips that feel so good against Yoongi's.
He is about to cry again. His heart aches, he wants to hold the younger in his arms, kiss him, talk to him, cuddle with him and just be around him. But he can't. The imagination of Jimin kissing Hoseok destroys everything. It's like everything they had, every moment, every feeling and every kiss was just a lie.

"What happened?" Namjoon keeps asking, but even if Yoongi doesn't want to talk to him, he still answers him. "I saw him and some other guy kissing."

"Well fuck.."

"Yeah. It feels like everything was a lie." Yoongi says, almost whispering. He doesn't look at Namjoon, but the younger can feel and hear the sadness in Yoongi's voice. "Hm.. I understand.."

"No you don't. You did the same to me." The elder hisses, making Namjoon feeling even more guilty than he already was before. "I know. You don't deserve to be treated like that. You are such a lovely and kind hearted person with a heart bigger than Africa." Yoongi laughs slightly, before his smile turns into the sad expression he had before.. "You really don't deserve this. I was so stupid back then. I fucking hurt you and i'm so sorry about that and it's okay if you don't accept my apology but I really would like to help you now. Why don't you come with me to my apartment? Jin isn't at home right now."