Why me

Why me P22

Why me Part22

As Jessie appeared on the stage she looked sought of awkward. My heart was in my mouth. Right now lots of different ideas were rushing through my head, they ranged from Jessie exposing that we were sisters to Jessie exposing that I had been on a reality TV show were they had just tricked me.

Girls screamed from different locations in the hall, and some even tried to run to the front of the stage, but of course they got stopped by various teachers. I just hoped and prayed Jessie wasn’t at this school because of me.

Jessie-“Okay, good morning, ok this is unusual, not really my type of everyday activity but, oh well.” Jessie came and sat down at the front of the stage, her legs hanging over the edge. People were hyper-ventilating and this made Jessie laugh.

Jessie-“Sorry.” Jessie said still laughing.

Jessie-“This is just weird for me.” She said, still laughing. Other people from around the room began to laugh, I don’t know why, she wasn’t even being funny. My hands began to sweat and I just wished she could hurry up and tell everyone about her passion for music or whatever Mr Howling said she was doing.

Jessie-“Okay pull yourself together Jessie.” Jessie half whispered to herself as she tried to put on a serious face.

Jessie-“Okay, today I’m here to talk to you about music, but not my passion for music.” She said as she looked over to Mr Howling and pulled a confused face.

Jessie-“Awkward.” She said as she let out a little giggle. (Referring to Mr Howling’s previous statement that she was going to talk about her passion for music.)

Jessie-“I’m here to ask you all a favour, well to enter you in my competition. I’ve asked all the performing arts schools around London’s surrounding area’s to be in my competition to be in my new music video for my new single. The winning school will also get a performance from me… Jessie J and my backing singers and my support acts, just like a normal gig.” Noise filled around the room as everyone got excited, I didn’t, but I was glad that Jessie wasn’t here to talk about me.

Jessie’s eyes were scanning the audience looking at everyone’s reactions, I pushed myself down so she couldn’t see me, but obviously everyone else was trying to get her attention so I stood out like a saw thumb. Jessie smiled over to me, like not even making it un-obvious.

Selena-“Oh my god Katie this is crazy, did she just smile at you?”

Kenzie-“No, I’m sure she smiled at you.” I said to Selena, I didn’t do this to try to make Selena happy; I did it to get the attention of me.

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Cindy-“Wasn’t that crazy!” Cindy asked me as she ran up to me leaving her friends stood there wondering where the hell she was going in a hurry.

Kenzie-“Erm yeah I guess…” I said as I walked away on my way to Physics.

Miss Patrol-“My name is Miss Patrol take a seat wherever.” She said as she handed me a book.

I sat myself down on one of the only two chairs that were available. I sat next to a girl who looked friendly, I think that if I learnt anything that Physics lesson it was that looks can be very deceiving.

“So that assembly was the worst thing I’ve ever had to sit through in my entire life, Jessie J is so totally lame.” First of all who even said lame nowadays?

Tom-“Oh look who’s jealous *cough* you Jenna *cough* you.” I looked up and my eyes met with Tom’s, I recognised him from the boy I was speaking to earlier, maybe looks were very deceiving because he defiantly looked too old to be in my classes. I smirked at Tom’s comment.

Jenna-“Oh so you think that was funny do you?” Jenna asked. I looked up to see who she was talking to, and sure enough it was me.

Kenzie-“Erm no? Else I would have laughed?” I wasn’t trying to be rude, I was just simply telling her the truth, If I thought it was funny I would have laughed, I didn’t find it funny, I just smirked that someone was putting her in her place, after all she was slagging my sister off.

Jenna-“You did laugh…”

Kenzie-“So I guess that means I found it funny.” I said as I smiled to her. I didn’t find it funny though. I didn’t even know this girl ‘Jenna’ but I knew that I already hated her.

Jenna-“Gosh please don’t tell me you’re a fan of that lesbian.” My head tilted towards her face as soon as I heard the word ‘lesbian’. Something inside me switched to myself having a bit of banter winding up a girl I didn’t even know that was going on about someone she didn’t know to someone who wanted to kill the girl sat in front of me. Jessie is proud of who she is and even if she wasn’t this bitch in front of me had no reason to call her that, even if it’s true, the way she said it in such a spiteful judgemental way made me skin crawl. So I guess that’s why I’m sat in Mr Howling’s office waiting them to try to reach my mom. There was no point though, my mom was at work, and she always had her mobile on silent at work, and I hadn’t given the school her work details yet, I wasn’t even planning on doing that.

Mr Howling-“Your mom isn’t picking up her phone; maybe you should go and sit in the inclusion office and have a little think about what you’ve done.” Truthfully I didn’t need to think about what I’d done, if I could go back I’d do the same, apart from I’d maybe slap her harder. I wasn’t a violent person at all, but she angered me, like really angered me, she got right inside of me and pushed me way too far.

I knew were they inclusion office was since I had a walk around with Selena earlier on in the day and it was next to where the visitors sign in and out. As I walked up the corridor to where the inclusion office was I saw a bald head that I knew all too well walking further and further away from me. Do I shout or don’t I?

Kenzie-“JESSIE!” I shouted as I ran down the long corridor and stood next to her. She turned around to face me but before she could say anything I pulled her into the inclusion room. We were the only people in there so that was good.

Jessie-“Kenz what are you doing shouldn’t you be-“ I cut her off half way through here sentence.

Kenzie-“Jess wait.” I said as I pulled her over to the red and pink groovy chairs.

I thought for a moment about what I had just done, I’d created suspicion, the first day I came people thought I looked like someone familiar, they pushed it to the back of their heads as I told them that I always get told that, but then Jessie visited, and then I hit someone for calling Jessie a lesbian. I realised what this all meant. I would either have to tell the truth or… yeah.

I had ‘the lump’ in my throat, the one you get as you try to hold back your tears, as I didn’t know how Jessie would react to what I was about to tell her, if she would think I was a physco or hate me, but the lump soon proved to be useless, it may as well have not been there as tears soon escaped the corners of my eyes. I had realised what I’d done, and I hated myself.

Kenzie-“Jess… I’ve messed up.” I said backing away from Jessie. I knew she would try to comfort me and tell me everything was going to be okay, but I didn’t want that, I’d told to many lies today, and I hated liars, I couldn’t stand Jessie telling me another, because I knew it wouldn’t be alright, nothing would be alright again how could it be.