MALADRESSE ✞

1.3

I KNOW PINOF WAS BEFORE DAN AND PHIL MOVED IN TOGETHER AND I KNOW THAT SOMETHINGS MAY NOT BE THE SAME, BUT IT'S MY FANFIC AND I ENJOYED WRITING IT SO I HOPE YOU ENJOY READING IT.

Note... I based this off my mood right now so I apologise in advance...

"Why don't we make a video together?" Phil asks.

"Huh?"

"Well, we both have a YouTube account... why don't we do a collab?" Phil says.

"And do what?" I question.

"I don't know, maybe just a simple Q&A, sometimes simple is best,"

"And call it what?"

He ponders this for a while then smiles brightly. "Phil Is Not On Fire,"

I laugh and nod. Both me and Phil post on Twitter, asking people for questions for us to answer. We plan some stuff but eventually both agreed to just go with the flow and if things get too weird for us to actually upload to the rest of the world... we could always edit it out later with Phil's editing tips.

Soon we were sitting in Phil's room on the floor and we were joking about how we find ourselves throughout the time we've been together that we draw cat whiskers on ourselves.

"You ready?"

"Let's do it!"

I look on my phone for the first question while Phil turns on the camera.

I look at the camera and randomly shove Phil's small lion teddy into my mouth.

"Are you seriously shoving my lion in your mouth?"

I put the teddy down and lean towards the camera. Phil rolls his eyes and I sit back.

"Innuendo."

Phil shoves me and I laugh at his adorableness.

"Why do you always make cat whiskers on your face?" I ask before proceeding to draw cat whiskers on my face.

"What does a giraffe sound like?"

Phil makes a weird noise that he always makes causing me to laugh.

"Every animal makes that noise with you!" 

We mess around and soon we don't even know what we're doing besides having fun. Who knew doing a basic Q&A would be so much fun? Maybe it was because of the person I was doing it with, he was just as lively and awkward as I am so it contributes and we just bounce off of each other.

I sit in front on the camera once again after bouncing on Phil's bed screaming my proclaimed love for Kanye West which we both promised to edit out later.

"This was the most fun I've ever had-" I begin, but I was interrupted by Phil jumping on me and me letting out a weird noise in surprise before we both start giggling.

We decided to make the end of the video cringe-y by making hearts with our hands that I used to do in my early YouTube videos. We completed the video and spent a good amount of time editing out all the things that would probably get us flagged... for stupidity...

"Want to order take-away and watch Anime?" Phil suggests.

"What is with all of your amazing ideas today?" I ask, shaking my head.

"They don't call me AmazingPhil for nothing," he points out.

"True, you go call whoever and order, I'll just add the finishing tips to this," I say, jabbing my thumb in the general direction of the computer.

"Fine, but if I rack up a bill too high for me to pay by myself I'm robbing you!" he says, walking out my room which we somehow converted to after filming.

"I wouldn't dream otherwise!" I shout back before I hear the door close.

I add the final touches before I press play from the beginning and watch the fun happen all over again. That's the beauty of video, you can have one of the most memorable moments in the world, but something can happen and within time your mind can forget... but camera doesn't. It's always there to watch as many time as you possibly want, show as many people as you'd possibly like, take screenshots and make them into pictures at the right moment because it won't matter if one is blurry and the moment is gone forever... it's always there until you physically erase it yourself.

I watch in admiration of the cuteness of Mr Philip Michael Lester, the way he laughs and was so carefree, as if the camera weren't there at all, what he was staring at was a mirror instead of a lens, another person instead of a motionless object. I like how he kept on touching his hair and looking at the camera like it was his best friends, as if he was looking at everyone that was- is, going to watch this video like they were there.

Like a friend.

Someone who cares.

When was the last time I had somebody that cared? A couple of months ago? No. Longer than that. Did Pj even care from the beginning? Before he even knew about Chris Kendall? I look at the way Phil looked at the camera and not once did someone ever look that  way towards me, not even Peej. Not even my mom... but that has nothing to do with this, this was a look of awe, as if there was nothing possibly more breath-taking or stunning as what that person was currently at.

"Dan! Foods here!"

I smile and pause the video, it just got to the part where Phil jumped on me and you could clearly see all the emotions in my eyes and face, happiness, peace, grateful. Because I was grateful of Phil, he brought me light when I was supposed to be morning the failure of my last relationship, he brought me Malteasers when I get randomly emotional, he brought me hope... hope that I could find and be a better person than who I had once been... who I still was...

I didn't want him to see that side of me, the side I try to keep hidden in the depth of my despair and misery, the side I purposely keep people at arms length away from me so they don't as much get a glimpse at the horrifying tortures of my brain and past. Phil was too innocent and pure to see so much darkness in one person, he deserved better. Better than me, the broken one, better than Chris, the unfaithful one, better than the acquaintance of Pj, the ungrateful one. Better than everyone.

Phil was that little ball of hope, joy, happiness and childish mischief that nobody could dare hate, you could be mad all you want for doing so, but you can't help but love. Everyone loves Phil, and those idiots in the comments saying otherwise either have nothing better to do with their lives and want attention because they have no way of getting it anywhere else, or they love Phil and are mad because of it so they turn that love into fake hatred and send those comments.

Which get shutdown and slammed by the many fans of AmazingPhil. You should see how fast they react to hate, it's as if they were all waiting for that one poor bastard to even dare think about posting it and when they do... they pounce. They all come together as one when it comes to supporting Phil and it's amazing to see just how much of an impact the man has one other people, younger, older, same age. It doesn't matter because Phil manages to connect and understand everybody.

"Dan! Seriously come on! Food's getting cold!"

I smile and get out of my chair, I stretch before walking out my room and into the front room, the smile still on my face. I take a seat next to Phil as he scrolls through the episodes of Death Note that we've already watched until he comes across the one we haven't. I pick up my plate after portioning my food onto it and I lean back, Phil looks at me with his eyebrow raised.

"What you smiling at, Dan?"

"Just a lil' ball of sunshine,"