Little Things// mendes

Chpt: 31

"So, how did it go?" Karen asked with a smile. She just wanted to see her baby boy, as did I.

"I'm afraid we have bad news," The man started. Oh shit.

"We lost Shawn during the operation. I'm sorry."

Logans POV:

No.

No.

NO!

The only word that could surround my head was no.

The person I love more than anything just died.

It wasn't supposed to end this way

First my mom, now Shawn.

Karen broke down in tears, Manny holding her. Aaliyah fell to the ground, sobbing. I just stood there. All these words bottling up inside. And then I screamed.

Nash and Taylor woke with a jolt, and ran over to us. The doctor told them the news, and Nash hugged Aaliyah. Taylor tried to comfort me but I pulled away from his grasp.

"No, there must be a mistake, he wasn't supposed to die, it shouldn't have ended this way, I-" I started.

"There is no mistake. Shawn lost his heartbeat unexpectedly during the surgery. We have no idea why, and we tried to save him, but we just couldn't have-" but I cut the doctor off.

"NO! THIS ISN'T RIGHT!" I yelled, putting all eyes on me. I started to cry, and I ran out of the room, into an empty hallway.

"YOU TOLD ME YOU WOULD MAKE IT OUT!" I yelled to the celling. I knew Shawn could hear me. "I NEED YOU HERE, WE NEED YOU HERE!" I screamed, falling to the ground.

(2017 jenna: goddamn i still know how to make myself cry, maybe it's because I'll always have a place in my heart for this book and Shawn. Anyways sorry for ruining the mood but this is kinda cringey. Also I'm sorry for killing Shawn. Whoops. Also go read my better fanfic called "detention" and listen to the band A Summer High :) )

I started to full on sob. Taylor eventually found me, and he just whispered lies to me, like, "he's in a better place." And, "it's better for him."

What's better for him is being on Earth with me.

He was in a good place, he had money, fans, family, a girlfriend, friends, everything a 17 year old boy could ask for.

(Shawn is 19 now holy shit)

I stood up, and walked back into out small section of the waiting room. Aaliyah rushed over to me and gave me a huge hug, crying into my tee.

There were tears everywhere. Manny even started to cry.

"Can we, well, see him?" Karen asled through tears. The doctor nodded and lead the teary-eyed couple to his room. I was holding Aaliyah, and I could see Nash started to cry. Taylor tried keeping himself together, but his eyes started watering. How could this happen?

"Are we aloud to post anything about it yet?" Aaliyah asked me. I wasn't sure. I'm not sure who we would ask. His parents, the doctor, Bart, or Andrew. I pulled out my phone and sent Andrew a text. He couldn't be here for the surgery.