Little Things// mendes

Chpt: 30

Logans POV:

"Hello my dearest." I heard someone say to me. I turned around, and I saw a very hot man on a unicorn.

"I'm Harry. Harold Styles." He whispered.

"Holy shit, fuck me daddy!" (this still hasn't changed lol i fuckin love harry so much but why was i calling him daddy?? I was 12?? Anyways I love harry -2017 jenna) I yelled, running towards him. Suddenly Calum Hood came out from behind the majestic horse and kissed my cheek.

"I love you, Logan." Calum told me, Harold looking quite jelous.

"OMG! I love you too, CalPal." I said dreamily. I leaned in to kiss Calum, when Harry pulled us apart.

"Stay true to Shawn." Harry said, with a light tone.

"Shawn is dead, she can fuck me if she wants." Calum said, pulling me away from the god. But Shawn wasn't dead from what I can remeber...

"That doesn't mean he doesn't love her. Logan, we all need you to stay true to Shawn, no matter what happens. Don't let anyone else love you like he did, okay? Promise me." Harry said, kissing my forehead, and then he was gone.

"Logan, Logan, Logannnn!!!" I heard someone shouting, awaking myself from the dream I was having. Harry Styles on a unicorn. That was new.

"What? Is Shawn up yet?" I asked, wearily. Nash had woken me uo. Only Nash, Taylor, Shawns family, and I had stayed overnight for his surgery. The waiting room was quite uncomfortable.

"Cameron texted you." Nash said, sliding my phone to me. I clicked my home button and saw a message.

Cam🌮: call me when you get this text baeeeeeee

I opened my contacts and clicked on Camerons name, calling his number. After 2 rings, he picked up.

"Hey Logan!" Cameron spoke, loudly.

"Yeah?"

"I just got done meeting that fan in Wyoming, I'm flying to Nashville in about an hour. Has Shawn gone into surgery yet?"

"Yes, he should be out in about 5 hours, good as new." I said, thinking about the dream I just had. Why the fuck was Calum telling me Shawn was dead?

"Okay, sounds good. Call me when his surgery is done." He said. We said our goodbyes and hung up. Aaliyah came over to me and sat down.

"Hi." She said, quietly.

"Hey." I smiled.

"What where you dreaming about?" She said looking up, with curiosity in her brown eyes.

"Well, Harry Styles and Calum Hood were there."

"Ooh, say no more. They're my dads." She said, making me laugh. We just continued talking about 5sos and 1d. I learned that Luke was her favorite from 5sos, and English Love Affair was her favorite song. Eh, I listened to steamy songs when I was 12 too. (YEAH I FUCKING DID CAUSE I WAS 12 WHEN I FUCKING WROTE THIS AND I WAS WRITING SMUT WHAT THE FUCK KS WRONG WITH ME -2017 jenna)

After about 2 hours. We were all getting board (**bored) so we played some card games. I won all except 2 games, both being won by Nash, which caused Taylor to throw all his cards on the ground, and Aaliyah to get mad about him ruining her 'vibe'.

I was kinda lonely without Shawn. I just wanted to hold him and kiss him and just tell him I love him, like always.

Nash had sent me the recording of Shawn singing to me, and then permanently deleted because he thought I should be the only one with the file. I thought that was sweet.

I watched the video over and over, not getting enough of his voice.

Aaliyah and I ended up watching Mean Girls on her iPad in the 3 hour of waiting, and we giggled like monkeys, earning stares from basically everyone.

I decided to take another nap after the movie, so I would be refreshed when I woke up.

***

I awoke with a jump, and I looked around. Aaliyah was standing over me, tears in eyes.

"Hey, what's wrong?" I asked her.

"I had a bad dream." She said, crying now. I pulled her into my lap and told her to tell me about it. I feel like Shawn would do the same.

"Well, it was about Shawn." She started. "He went into surgery, and when he came out, he was dead. He's only 17, he hasn't done really anything yet. He's never had kids or gotten married or seen me get married and I'm just scared. What if he doesn't live and my mom and dad will go through a state of depression? What if I become depressed? What if-" (i was 12 and i wasn't even depressed what the hell

but little did 12 year old jenna know that a short 8 months later i would hate myself so much that i would actually consider suicide and have to take anxiety and depression medication mmm love myself) -2017 jenna)

"Shhhh." I said, rubbing her back. "Shawn will be alright. He'll come out of that room soon and be as good as new." I said, trying to calm her. But to be honest, I was scared as fuck too.

"But my worst concern is you." She said quietly. That's when my heart completely broke.

"Why is that?"

"Well, you love him. Maybe even more than I do. What if you get depressed and want to be with him? What if you find someone new? What if you never see my family again because it's too hard?!" She asked, completly sobbing.

"I don't want to loose you." She said. "You're like my sister, and I've only known you for like, A WEEK?!" She said, with a light giggle.

"Everything will be okay, Aaliyah. Even if Shawn isn't okay, I'll always visit your family, okay? I'll come to Canada any time you want and we can still be friends, or sisters." I said with a smile. She nodded her head and got up. We saw a doctor go over to Karen and Manny so Aaliyah and I rushed over. Nash and Taylor were still sleeping.

"So, how did it go?" Karen asked with a smile. She just wanted to see her baby boy, as did I.

"I'm afraid we have bad news," The man started. Oh shit.

"We lost Shawn during the operation. I'm sorry."

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Word count: 950
Date: 1-26-16

I HAVE TO GO TO SCHOOL IN A LITTLE AND I'M NOT DRESSED AND I DON'T HAVE MY MAKEUP ON SHIIIIT😂 I feel like you guys knew this was coming but ya know, there it is... I'M SORRY😭

Btw shoutout to all my instagram friends and school friends😏

Okay, I lov you guys, and the next chapter should be pretty long, as for the 3-5 after that. I have the rest of the book planned out, and I know what I want to do.

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