Little Things// mendes

Chpt: 34

Logans POV;

Today was the day.

The day I would be seeing all my friends and, well what seemed like family.

The day I would be giving a eulogy to the boy I love.

The day I would be saying goodbye to Shawn.

I had finished my eulogy around 4am last night. I woke up Aaliyah and Mahogany so I could read it to the both of them. Mahogany was real pissed.

They both said it sounded good, but I wasn't sure. It was probably complete shit.

So I fixed it. 8 more times.

Now I'm getting ready for the day I've been dreading. I decided to wear a black skater skirt with a black sheer blouse, that had a white pearl collar. I put a gold necklace on that Shawn had given me, and a pair of black toms, too. I curled my hair, and put on a black rose flower crown, because Shawn liked my flower crowns. I wanted to make him happy.

I grabbed my notebook that had the eulogy, and went out to Karens car with Mahogany and Aaliyah. Manny and Karen took Mannys car awhile ago, to head to the venue, so they trusted me enough to drive.

By the time we got to the place, everyone had already arrived. The three of us went to the front row, and sat down.

A priest came up to the podeom and said some shit. All I could focus on was Shawn in the caske, it being wide open. He looked so beautiful, as always.

(Wouldn't he have rotted or some shit?? Idk just asking. -2017 Jenna)

Eventually, the priest called Manny and Karen up to give their eulogy, majority of the talking being done by Manny, because Karen was sobbing.

Next it was Ian, and boy did he have one hell of a speach.

"Shawn Mendes was a badass little bastard." He started, earning glares from adaults, and laughs from other teenagers. "He was my best friend since I could remeber, and we'd shared many great times. I remeber when he tried to make me play hockey and I broke my arm. Little douche. It's such a shame to see such a beautiful soul pass, and I loved him like the brother I never had. Sorry Geoff, but you suck. All in all, I loved the kid and he was amazing. Rest in peace my friend."

What a great speach.

Next was Aaliyah. She was just kinda winging it, trying hard not to cry.

"Shawn was my brother. We were very close and I loved him." She sniffed. "He got to live his dream and that's all that matters. He had a beautiful girlfriend, who'd I'd gladly call my sister, and wonderful friends, who I'd call close cousins. He would go out of his way for me, and I loved him for that. I'm going to go now before I cry even more. I love you, big brother." Aaliyah cried. She was being very mature. She sat back down and Hayes wrapped his arms around her.

It was my turn to give my speach.

"Hi. I'm Logan. Now I'm sure not all of you know me. I am- was Shawns girlfriend. I loved him so goddamn much, it hurts." I said, reading from my notebook, that was already covered in tear stains.

"I loved Shawn more than I loved myself. I don't think I could ever move on, because I feel as if he were my true love. You only get one.

I'd only known him for 3 months. I know what you're thinking, you can't fall in love with someone you've only just met. But he felt different. I could be myself around him, and he wouldn't judge me. I could tell him anything and he'd just love me even more for it. We were inseparable. Shawn was probably my best friend, and I was probably his. He could share anything with me. The world was just us two in his eyes. He was my king, and I his queen.

His family was always most important to him. He could go to his mom with advice, his dad with manly advice, and could give his sweet sister the advice that had been passed down.

I loved Shawn beyond his wildest dreams, and he loved me, that I can assure you. I really don't know what to do without him....

The point is, is that Shawn was loved dearly, and we will all miss him. Isn't that everyones point?

I loved Shawn, and all his little things. Rest in peace, my prince." I said. I was a crying mess, and so was everyone else this far. I went to sit back down in my chair, and the priest walked back up.

"From ashes to ashes, dust to dust." He said, and closed the casket. That was that. The end of Shawn Peter Raul Mendes. The last we would all see of him.

Later that day, I was in Shawns room, wearing one of his hoodies. Sobs were the only noise in the room. It was exactly 1:56am. But I couldn't sleep without him next to me.

I'd remeber that today was the day Shawn had told me to open my box. I grabbed the cube, and sat on his bed, turning on his lamp. I openend the cardboard, and looked inside.

A necklace with an infinity sign on it, a hoodie that was his, all of the receipts from the meals he just "had" to pay for, and a note. I put the hoodie on the pillow, that smelled of him, and tucked the receipts away in my purse. I put on the necklace, and opened the note.

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word count: 941
Date: 2/20/16

It's done. BUT WAIT?! What's inside of the note? Aren't you going to tell us Jenn? The answer is yes. On February 31st

JK I will tell you on February 29th bc there won't be another one for 4 years LOL

So this is the last official chapter, but I'm still posting the letter. Btw, if you haven't already, go check out my new book 18 letters. It's already finished so all the better, right?!

I love you ALL so much and I hope you enjoyed, my book, little things❤️

{kmiiw (kiss me if i'm wrong) will be out in march, along with some of the first few chapters. You're welcome.}