Entities Of The Soul

Serenity, Please.

God quiet my thoughts
Calm my intense soul
Why was I created with such intensity that I can hardly bare it at times

Waves crashing against rocks
Penetrating my sanity along the shore
As my stress builds
Short breaths are taken
Rapid beats are beaten
Racing mind
Heart plummeting down
It feels like a storm inside me
The thing I fear the most

Let me have inner peace
Let me release what is overwhelming

Heal my heart
Tell me what my calling is, oh Father
I wasn't given this fierce mind and passionate spirit for nothing
What am I supposed to do with it

How am I supposed to use it
Lord, I feel I'm too young for this mind of mine and this soul
I feel like these emotions and hormones mixed with it all is a recipe for anxiety and corruption
Why couldn't all of this wait
Until I was mature enough to handle it all
What is the reasoning behind this timing

Why must everything move so fast
Why must everything hit with

So.

Much.

Force.

I want to be able to breathe
And live happily with all this soul
And write happily with all this soul

I want peace
I need peace

I know peace is what I will have
I know peace is for me

Lord when I write I know this
When I write serenity is poured down unto me
Writing is what you give me to quiet my thoughts and lift this heavy heart

Lord don't let writing ever be taken away from me
Poetry, stories, novels
The love of my life
And the fire in my soul

I thank you for it all
Even if I am confused with myself
And I bless your name for what's to come