"I can't" I said as I clutched the bag in my hand and ran out of the house, I couldn't help but regret what I had done, to be completely honest I was only being selfish with my decisions, not once did I care about how it would affect Gerard, only me, not once did I think about how much me basically telling Gerard that I could care less about him would affect him.
I continued to run until I had reached the cemetery gates, pushing them open I walked in despite it slowly growing dark
I walked through the cemetery, glancing at the headstones and the flowers that accompanied them, I always thought it was interesting how you could tell the people that truly mourned the loss of their loved ones, those headstones had flowers that were either new or a few days old. The other graves of those relatives that honestly could care less were littered with dead, brown, wilting flowers
I let my mind wander as I thought to myself 'which would I be', shaking my head I continued to walk abruptly stopping at a small grave with a small child's face engraved into the stone slab,
'Here lies our beloved daughter
Annebel Belignton
May she find peace and happiness up above
1998-2002'
I looked at the carnations that surrounded the grave, various colors. The scent of the flowers was quite noticeable and I couldn't help but feel my mood become even more down than before
Looking up I continued to walk until I reached a small brick building, sitting down I leaned against the rough cold bricks leaning my head back too. I let the silence consume me, my mind went blank as I just focused on the calm surrounding I was in, no one was here to interrupt me, no one cared, no one would find me unless I wanted to be found, I rarely came here and when I did no one ever found me
Letting my arms fall to my side my left arm hit something causing me to suddenly become alert
"This feels like déjà vu" The figure said next to me
"Gerard, how di yo-"
"You're not the only one that knows about this place, Frank, I haven't been here for long but I've been here long enough to know where the most relaxing places to get lost are" Gerard said his voice cracked and weak
"Gerard I'm sorry" I sighed
"Don't apologize if you don't mean it Frank, I really am past the point of caring anymore, It's not like I have a choice anyways" He said his tone showing a hint of annoyance and anger.
Not exactly knowing what to say I just sat there silently wishing that I had tried to find another place more secluded
"I'll leave you alone, see you Monday, Frank" Gerard said as he got up, waving at me before walking off with his hands jammed into the pockets of his skinny jeans
I just watched, knowing that if I chased after him noting good would come from it.
I leaned my head back once again, letting out small sobs as I felt the all too familiar warmth of tears fall dreadfully slow down my cheeks reminding me of how much I messed up, but everything got better within time.
Right?
((Such a short chapter, sorry; But an update none the less :) ))
