Useless and Unwanted ..

My name is Amber and I am currently sixteen years old. I lost my mom at the age of ten because she was murdered. The murderer was never found or so that's what I was told anyways. I miss her so much. she meant the absolute world to me. Now that I don't have her in my life I feel so lost. We used to have the perfect relationship. We talked about everything. she was like my best friend. Its like I've lost a big part of me that I can never gain back..

From the time my mom died up until now my life has changed drastically. Ever since my mom died my dad hasn't been the same. I don't mean simple changes I mean BIG changes. I think its this new "wife" he has or maybe he has been this way all along and just waited till my mom was out of the picture? I have my suspicions about my dad being the one who murdered my mom. I mean he didn't show a bit of remorse toward her death and he never attempted to find the murderer. What kind of man allows the murderer of his wife remain free? Maybe a weak one? or maybe the one who murdered his wife?

They never got along and she always took my side on everything and that drove him crazy. He hated the fact that I was so close to my mom. I really dont know or understand why?

You want to talk about a sudden life change? well here you go. My life is the epitome of sudden life change.