Flight 407

In the morning-chapter 15

A/n hello everybody, I've missed you, how are you? It's been so long I'm sorry, but school has been crazy and I had to rewrite this chapter like 5 times because I had a crazy writing block.
But it's all better now.
Also, we've reached 1200 reads which is so crazy and I'm so thankful so consider this chapter as a thank you gift. It turned out over 5000 words!
Anywise thank you all so much for reading, commenting and voting, it's amazing and I appreciate it so so much.

"Hay Phil, do you want something to eat?"
"Sure"
"Pizza?"
"Only crazy people decline pizza Dan, it's a known fact"
"So no?"
"Shut up" Phil playfully hits Dans arm
Dan opens his laptop and orders a pizza than plops down next to Phil on the couch "want to play some Mario cart while we wait for the pizza to arrive?"
"Yeah, but I must worn you, I'm gonna crush you"
"We'll see about that now won't we?" Dan got up to set the system his father bought for him the second time he came to visit him because the first time was horrifically boring and he obviously was the only one to ever use it, he didn't have any friends and although he tried to get his father to play he just didn't get it and the only way he was even close to succeeding was if they went horrendously slow, so Dan basically had every game and game console that was ever invented to keep him company when his dad was on flights and he was a master of all of them since that's basically all he did all day when he was at his dad's which was okay, but still very lonely.

He handed Phil the controller while they were both sitting on the gray sofa, they proceeded to play for a while and Phil was actually pretty good, finely Dan had some real competition and he liked it, dan was better then him but it was still fun to hear Phil's frustrated sounds and comments every time someone passed him and he found it funny how he never actually cursed, Dan did, quite a lot actually but Phil didn't and he looked like he would, Phil was intriguing in dans eyes, he looked like he would be scary or intimidating but he was the complete opposite of that, he was funny and too sweet for his own good, but you would still think a 21 year old man would curse a little, even kids say stuff like 'shit and 'fuck' but Phil used PG13 comments, like the kind of curses you would say around kids like 'mother fluffer' and even that felt harsh for Phil.
"Phil"
Phil was deep in the game and was moving the controller like you would an actual steering wheel and Dan couldn't help but chuckle at that "mhm?" He was biting his lip in complete concentration
"Why don't you ever curse?"
"Huh?"
"I mean most people do, not as much as me but your allowed to curse you know"
Phil thought of answer "I don't know, Matthew never liked me cursing I guess" the second the answer left his mouth he regretted it
"Who's Matthew?"
"Who? Um no one, don't worry about it"
But of course Dan did , how could he not? Not only was he an extremely jealous person but a curious one too, besides, the fact that Phil didn't want to tell him made him want to know about it more, but he didn't want to push it, people always told him he was needy and nosy and that pushed a lot of them away, he couldn't loose Phil, he knows so much about Dan and they have such a special connection, he'll ask him another day, just not now.

Dans insecurities were returning

"Yeah bu-" the door bell interrupted Dan and Phil couldn't be more thankful, he didn't like talking about him, even after all this time he wasn't ready and he didn't want to burden the young boy with any of his troubles, he'd have enough of his own.

"pizza!" He exclaimed loudly with an awful attempt of an Italian accent, he strolled over to the door, opening it and greeting the pizza delivery guy while Dan walked over to the kitchen to fetch the money his father left for him but when Dan turned to the door Phil was already carrying the pizza to the glass coffee table that was positioned at the foot of the sofa
"Did you pay for the pizza?"
Phil hammed and nodded his head while setting the plates on the table
"Phil! I was supposed to pay for it, my dad left me money for that exact reason"
Phil turned to him "This is the only thing we've been on by now that even resembles a first date and me-being the gentleman I am- will not stand for you paying for any thing we do until we'll have at least our 3ed, today doesn't count by the way"
Dan laughs at Phil's adorable explanation "why not?"
"Have you ever been on a date?"
Dan blushed at his lack of experience "no" he admits
"Your first date can't just be us hanging out, it has to be spectacular! You really deserve it Dan, you deserve the best" Phil repeats what he said earlier that evening but Dan doesn't understand, why would he deserve anything spectacular? Why would he deserve anything at all? Wherever he went and whoever he spoke to in the last at least nine months took any opportunity to tell and show Dan why this wasn't true, why he was just an undeserving faggot, a queer that no one will ever like and obviously will never love, that's why Phil's words only scared him, it made him feel weird, it's been so long since he has heard someone even telling him 'good morning' or asking him how was his day going and than there's Phil and he comes into dans life treating him like he actually means something, like him he means everything and Dan is afraid he is too emotionally scarred to ever believe him, he is scared of the words, and he is scared of Phil in a whole new way, not in a 'Phil is going to curs and hit me' way, but in a 'what if I do love or have strong emotions towards Phil and he is going to hurt me' way, because let's face it, Dan has only gotten hurt from trusting people in the past and he can't see a reason Phil would be any different, but he just looks so innocent with his big blue eyes and smile, his kind words and his hands caressing his hair and Dan just wants to let his guards down completely and let Phil all the way in
But he can't, and now he has to be even more closed than ever, because that's all he knows now
So although he wants to yell at Phil and explain to him why he isn't worth a second of his precious time, he just nods reassuringly at Phil because he knows better than to do any of that, and for the time being he will let phil pay and think Dan not a worthless human being that is so different that he is actually scared of his own emotions.
Because Dan knows, he knows that once Phil finds out about the nightly nightmares and the bruises and how much he actually is emotionally damaged he will run for dear life, so Dan is going to try and enjoy the little time he has with Phil until it inevitably happens
"So will you?"
Dan snaps out of his thoughts "sorry?"
"I asked if you would go on a date with me"
"Phil, you are literally my boyfriend, what do you think?"
"I think that we did it all backwards and I want to give you the full dating experience, because, like we've established before, I am a gentleman"
What Dan wants to say is that Phil is too good for him and that he should find someone that actually deserves him, but he is too selfish so he just answers with "yes lion, but does that mean I'm not allowed to kiss you until that, because I'm classy and I don't kiss until at least the second date"
"Well I thought about that but than you went ahead and called me lion just now and I think kisses should be allowed, welcomed even"
"Okay so I want kisses" Dan says fake pouting at Phil and batting his eyelashes to make him irresistible to Phil, which he already was but even more so than that.
Phil gently pressed his lips onto dans, carefully cupping his cheek as their lips moved slowly in perfect sync, dans arms pressed onto Phil chest and eventually Phil had to pull back to breath "I love kissing you" phil said making Dan blushed and phil smirked, he liked how easily he could make the boy's cheeks flush "pizza time" he called excitedly.