Flight 407

Chapter 19

A/n hey guys, sorry this chapter is kind of late, I don't have much to say today but I wanted to know if I were to do a character ask would you guys like it? Please comment.
Anywise, hope you enjoy😄

They sat at the white dining room table, a big gray map covered it and a vase with some white flowers stood at the middle, the roast and potatoes where placed next to the vase and the black matte plates had white and black striped napkins on them, Dan sat next to Phil with his father right across from them, small talk started as Dan passed each one of them a plate full of the delicious food he had been working on all day. They were mostly talking about dan's father's latest trip with phil asking some questions and even joking with John, Dan stayed mostly quite, letting Phil and his father bond.
"So Dan told me you work with computes?" John said, taking another potato and looking up at Phil
Phil gave Dan a little smirk and Dan smiled at him apologetically "yeah"
"You like it?"
"On, yeah, computers really interest me, I'm really into technology" Phil answered, giving a none committing answer
"Interesting, how did you get to that profession? Did you go to uni?"
"Yeah, I completed my degree in English language from the university of York about a year ago"
"Oh" Johan actually looked impressed and shocked and Dan smiled smugly at him, he thought Phil was a no good punk but he was getting to know the intelligent Phil he knew.
actually Dan was pretty impressed himself, Phil and him never really talked about eduction, whether it was because Phil knew about dan's experience at school and didn't want to bring it up or just because they didn't find it interesting enough to talk about.
"That's impressive"
Phil shrugged "I guess"
The conversation continued, they talked about how John got to be a pilot, shared experiences and jokes, Dan glanced at his father while Phil was telling one of his funny stories about his mum on April fools and he actually looked interested and delighted to have Phil there, it was as if he momentarily forgot about Phil's black died hair, piercings and tattoos and actually allowed himself to get to know his personality and nature for real, no judgment and no stereotypes.
Maybe his father was capable of changing and accepting, did he judge him too harshly by thinking he wouldn't accept Phil? Maybe all he needed was someone to force him to get to know a person like Phil.
Dan smiled happily, it was actually working out well.

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"So Phil,a successful young man like you must have a lot of girls chasing after him. do you have a girlfriend?"
Dan and phil looked at each other awkwardly "um, no actually" Phil said, hoping and praying with all his heart dan's dad won't ask any further questions , but of course, he did "why not?"
"Dad" dan hissed at his dad, giving him a pleading look
Dan's father' eyes were boring into Phil who looked extremely uncomfortable and awkward. he opened his mouth to answer but Dan's dad beat him to it "is it because of your looks?"
"Excuse me?" Phil held himself back from punching him straight in the face, but he knew he couldn't-for dan, he glanced sideways to check up on him, he knew dan hated conflict and yelling and violence-he sure did have a reason to. But dan just looked mad, perhaps even more than Phil, who was already kind of used to being judged by his looks. But dan did look a bit scared, his body was tense because of anger but his shoulders were slumped and he was trembling slightly, Phil knew how much dan wanted that night to work and he wasn't going to be the one to ruin it.
Phil unclenched his gaw, he wanted to hold dans hand to show him everything is going to be alright but he didn't want to get him into trouble or whatever.
"No, that's not the reason actually"
"Well than what is?" His voice was poisonous and mean but Phil ignored it and looked over to dan and looked at him with a look he hoped he'd understand as 'can I tell your dad I'm gay'
Dan looked into Phil's eyes and he was glad Phil didn't tell his dad because he was being nice and considerate while his dad was acting like a giant prick, but as his father continued to ask him questions and Phil looked at dan like he did he felt bad, all he wanted was to shake his head as hard as he could, he didn't want his dad to know Phil was gay, it would just make everything a lot trickier and it already was kind of a mess. But right as he was about to turn his he thought about it, how could he make someone that was comfortable with his sexuality lie and live in a lie, even if it would only be when dan's dad is around, wouldn't it make him just as bad as people like his dad or the kids at his school? Maybe even worse.
So he nodded halfheartedly at Phil.
"You see, the thing is, well" Phil wasn't sure how to say it, usually he didn't have any trouble confessing his sexuality, he was completely open with his viewers and often shared dating or relationship matters with them. He honestly couldn't understand why someone's sexuality was such a big deal, for example if someone comes out and people stop loving them or start treating them differently it's just plain stupid, that person was always the same sexuality or gender or whatever, the only thing that's different Is the fact that they either accepted themselves or finely felt comfortable enough in their own skin to be the best them they could be.
The problem today was that the answer he was about to give john wasn't only going to affect him, if someone didn't accept him he didn't really mind it, sure it hurt but he was used to it, the problem now was that if John didn't accept him it would hurt Dan and he would not allow it, but he decided the best thing was to be honest with Dan's dad, after all Dan did say he accepted him and if they were in a relationship in any sorts Phil was going to be around them a lot and didn't want to lie and then have to deal with the consequence.
"The reason I don't have a girlfriend sir-"
"John"
"Yes, well the reason I don't have girlfriend, John, is that I'm gay"
Johns's face and body language that was calm and laid back stiffened slightly, enough for Phil to notice and for Dan to gulp "boyfriend?"
"No" Phil lied
John's fist collided with the table harshly, making the cutlery jump and dan cringed and wrapped his arms around his trembling figure "is this what's been going on?! Are you two together?" He directed his gaze to dan, completely ignoring how scared he obviously was "huh?!" He spat "answer me! Is this why you wanted to invite him over so badly?"
Dan flinched and sunk further into his seat while wrapping his hands tighter around himself in pure terror, he gulped "n-no" he stuttered so softly his voice was nearly inaudible especially compered to his father's booming voice.
But Dan's father was not pleased with that answer and looked at Phil angrily who was glaring back at him harshly, dan did not deserve that kind of behavior, didn't he say his dad was okay with him being gay? Well, it certainly does not look like that. "So, you sit next to my son on a long flight I paid for" he momentarily averted his gaze to dan who squirmed in his sit "and corrupt him? Make him lie to me?!"
"I don't know what your talking about" he said through gritted teeth, he was defiantly not as affected by that kind of behavior, at least not as much as dan, who got scared but Phil just got very angry and worried about dan
Dan's dad chuckled darkly and Phil's jaw clenched along with his fists that he held under the table "we are not together, we're just friends, the fact we're both gay doesn't necessarily mean we are together, just like you aren't dating every straight women you know" Phil's voice remained calm and Dan's shaking subsided slightly at the fact he was so calm and that he didn't tell his dad they were together because in the end of the day he was the one that had to stay in the same house as him and he could not lose another person in his life, his dad's house was supposed to be his sanctuary not another place he was scared to be in.
Dan's dad squinted at them, trying to find out if they were telling him the truth or not.
In front of him sat a small quivering boy in a grey shirt that was now draped over his hands, which were clutching the fabric tightly as he hugged himself as if his life depended on it, his eyes were shut so hard it formed creases next to them. sitting next to him was an intimidating looking much larger man, with a deep blue shirt adoring his wide shoulders and slightly muscled arms, his blue eyes were looking at him challengingly and his eyebrow and nose piercings glimmered in the light of the room, his ebony hair was swooped to the side, reviling two black earrings.
John shook his head in amusement "you're right, I don't know what I was thinking, I mean you two?" His voice changed drastically as if he hadn't just screamed at them a minute ago "that's just crazy, you are nothing a like" he smiled at them as his phone rang "excuse me, duty calls" he stuffed a dinner roll into his mouth and excused himself to his office.
Phil listened to him answering the phone and when the door clicked shut he turned to dan, who was sitting frozen on his chair, his eyes opened and were glazed over as he stared at the bare wall in front of him
"Dan" Phil said softly and when not getting any kind of reaction from the boy he gently touched dans shoulder, which made the younger flinch away from him and and hug himself tighter "it's okay, it's just me, you're safe".
A single tear rolled down his cheek and his eyes turned to Phil "ph-" he started but then stopped as he heard the way his voice wavered "yes Bambi?"
"Hu-hug m-" Phil's strong arms wrapped around Dan's fragile frame and dan nuzzled his head into Phil's safe chest "I'm s-so s-sorry, please d-don't be m-mad"Phil clutched dan tighter upon hearing the words that flew from his mouth, if course he wasn't mad, well, not at dan at least, he was mad at his father that was supposed to be the one person to have Dan's back and was slightly mad at himself, maybe if he didn't look the way he did Dan's dad would've accepted him and they didn't have to be in this situation, maybe if he had just swallowed his pride and said he was straight the night would've gone fine... He sighed and buried his head into Dan's soft hair, inhaling deeply, dan had some kind of soothing affect on him, his soft brown eyes and body, his shy personality and his amazing, calming scent "you should probably leave"
"Huh?"
"I don't want dad to get mad again and I don't want to make you uncomfortable, it's not you're fault that he is the way he is, and I don't like the way he talked to you and when he gets out of his office I don't know how he'll act because obviously he is pretty bi poler, I mean one second he's yelling at us and then he's laughing, I don't want you to be here when he gets back, I'll be in my room so you shouldn't worry about me okay?" He spoke fluently, not letting Phil interject.
"Bu- dan I don't want to leave we barely even talked for like a week and I don't know when we'll have an opportunity to meet, plus I don't think it safe for you to-"
"Phil, trust me I don't want you to leave-"
"I don't know, lately it feels like you don't really want to hang out and talk and stuff-"
"This is not the time to talk about this"
"I know, I just need to know that we will talk about this sometime soon"
Dan sighed "we will, I promise, and we'll hang out, I'm just not really good at this relationship stuff and" he paused, thinking if he should say the next part "and in friendship stuff generally, I hadn't have a friend In years" he looked at his hands that were now resting at his lap
"Didn't you say you came out last year and that's when it all started?" Phil's voice was filled with concern and he held Dan's hand gently, rubbing his thumb along his knuckles in a calming manner, he knew how hard it was for dan to admit those kind of things and talk about them and didn't want him to feel pressured, especially now that he was feeling so vulnerable.
"That doesn't mean I had friends, I just didn't get bullied back than, I was a nobody, just another face in the crowd, I used to wish I had friends, that I was popular, now I wish I could just go back to being invisible" dans voice was quite and strained and he visibly sank further into his seat
"Dan"
Dan faked a smile "nah, it's okay now" he straightened in his seat and stood up, holding Phil's hand in his and lead him to the door "I'll talk to you later or tomorrow, I'm kind of tired" he faked a chuckle and planted a soft kiss on Phil's cheek
"Dan" his voice held some kind of urgency in it. Phil saw dan was clearly not okay, maybe he could of fooled another person, but not Phil, he saw the sad glint dans brown eyes held in them, and he also the dark circles under his eyes, and although they got a bit better since last time the saw each other he had an ominous feeling the next time they met they would look like before, perhaps even worse.
Dan ushered him out the door "don't worry"
"Wa-" the door clicked behind Phil before he could finish his sentence and dan rested his forehead against it letting a deep breath out, he felt tears threatening to fall from his eyes "no, you are not weak" he scolded himself and went to the dining room, he spent forty minutes cleaning everything out, headphones in his ears blasting music so hard he wouldn't be surprised if he'd gone deaf and biting hard on his bottom lip, holding himself back from breaking down.

he tried not to think but his father's words kept replaying in his head 'you two? that's just crazy, you are nothing a like' maybe he was right, his dad was very smart and intelligent. Besides it's not like that thought never crossed his mind, it's just that whenever he would think about that even more reasons why they shouldn't be together would cloud his mind, like how Phil could do much, much better then him, how he was wasting Phil's time, how much people hated and will never accept him, so Phil's subscribers would hate his guts like everyone else in his life, he thought about how Phil would grow tired of him in a little while and about many other reasons, but he would always have to stop himself after a while because these thoughts were very dangerous to him.
When he finished placing the last plate back in the cupboard he sighed again and walked to his room, slammed the door behind him and plopped down on his bed, he was both physically and emotionally exhausted, after spending the entire day slaving away on dinner and then having to deal with the stress of his dad and Phil meeting, have dinner go amazing and then awful in a glimpse of an eye, having to deal with his dad, the only person that cared about him yell at him and then having to stay strong-ish around Phil drained every last drop of strength he had in him, he was too tired to cry which made it worse because he had no way of reliving himself of the stressful day he had, his head turned to look at his night stand, where he knew his razor was sitting patiently for him to use under a few notebooks and random crap he placed there to hide the object.
Dan tried to stand up but his legs wobbled and his body rebelled against him, sanding him back to lie on his bad in a not so comfortable position, he groaned, promising himself to get to it tomorrow and let himself be dragged to a nightmare filled slumber.

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