Dangerous Lies

Chapter 3

We’d left school early so no one is home yet. I lead them to the kitchen and we grab something to eat before heading up to my room.

“Dude, this is a sweet set up.” Jenny smiles plopping down on my couch the other girls spread out around my room.

“Hell yeah, maybe if my step mom gave me a set up like this I'd still be living at home.” Lucy smirks.

Rina snorts, “There is no way your step mom would allow you to be in the gang. That woman is a control freak.”

Lucy rolls her eyes, “she needs the picture perfect family.” her eyes meet mine, “when she realised I wasn’t the brainiac oh so sweet and pretty step daughter she kicked me out and cut me out of her life. I'm not allowed to see my little sister. She’s an evil bitch and my father didn’t even care.”

“She only did this out of guilt. She hasn’t been a part of my life since I was ten years old. Now I'm the one crashing the perfect family with her and the step-fam.” I roll my eyes and shrug. It’s nothing new. Jace and I use to always talk about how she just disappeared from our lives. How she never called, never visited, never cared. She moved onto something better, more acceptable and she left behind her real family. We weren’t good enough and now with one son dead and her daughter getting into trouble and needing to move in, she’s probably not happy.

“Guilt for what, if you don’t mind my asking”

I laugh bitterly, “for abandoning us…for a lot of things. Things are complicated.”

“You have siblings?”

I clear my throat, “a twin.” Was all I would say and I said it in a final tone so that they dropped it. I wasn’t going to spill everything out for them. I hardly knew them and they were involved in a gang. I'm being stupid hanging with them. They’re dangerous and I could get caught in the middle. They’re going to have their gangs’ best interest at heart, not that I fault them for that. Maybe I'm jealous of that. Jace and I had each other’s back. I stuck up for him and he stuck up for me…not that I needed it much. He was always the one who needed protection. Everybody was on his case. Shawn and a few other guys that hung around were cool with it and they defended him too but I didn’t know them that well. I only knew Shawn. But I guess the part I'm jealous of is that I don’t have it anymore. I'm just so alone. After everything with my dad and losing Jace and now moving, I just thought maybe I'd finally feel better.

The girls left later on, after we hung out and played video games. They got a call and had to bolt. They didn’t look too excited but the only thing they would tell me was its gang related and that I should stay inside tonight. I did just that and I finished whatever work I had, made myself dinner since no one was home and then went to bed early.

I had the dream again. The one where he’s right there, we’re laughing and talking about our party coming up and he’s talking about his crush he has. He has that smile on his face, the one that you just feel the happiness radiating out of. He’s so happy and so relaxed. His laugh is infectious and charismatic. His blue eyes just a shade lighter than mine but still dark were shining. His dark brown hair hangs in his eyes. His braces show as he smiles an almost perfect smile.