Be good for me

No use crying

4 days later

Endless calls and texts from Michael, all the same bullshit excuses he could think of so he wouldn't have to blame himself.

I began to feel numb with every ticking minute, like by the end of the day I couldn't feel anything.

Maybe I'm sad? Depressed? I thought to myself but I already knew figuring out why I was this way wouldn't make anything better....nothing could.

Everyday I would sit on the couch back in my old place dwelling and skipping school to avoid everyone.

Nobody cares so much and I knew I missed a lot. Michael does come by here dropping my school work off
In the mail so I don't fail anything, I just haven't done the work unless I'm bored.

I haven't seen my sister in forever she refuses to speak or look at me, off fucking some guy in some house.

Maybe I was better off dead?
Or Maybe I would forgive Michael for cheating?
Forging and forgetting I still wouldn't be able to forgive myself for choosing.

My phone rang again, I ignored it thinking it was Michael again and it wasn't it was Luke.

I hadn't spoken to him at all

We just know each other

But I answer.

"Hey Tessa!" He greets and flinch at his loudness.

"Hey Luke" I manage to cough out.
"How have you been?" He asked and I shrugged though he couldn't see me. "Good..." I lied.

"Bullshit! I know what happened and you can just tell me" he says I shook my head. "I can't just tell you Luke, it's a state of mind where things don't need to be told" I say not quite understanding what I said myself.

"So what he cheated and your sister left you're not alone! Don't miss school!" He said and I flinched.
"You don't know me why are you doing this?" I ask and I heard a deep chuckle. "Because I'm tried of watching Michael hurt girls over and over again" he says and I felt my heart break at the sound of his name.

"Well...it doesn't matter me and Michael aren't even together anymore and I'm getting over him just as well as he is getting over me" I say knowing it's not true.

Michaels been better from what I've seen, he goes to school and spends time with girls probably fucks them too.

"Oh my god are you listening you yourself right now Tessa! You sound so depressed and alone" he said and I feel tears. "WELL I AM!"I shout water falls of tears running down my swollen cheeks. He closed his mouth and frowned. "It's ok" he pulled me in for a hug I didn't hug back, not feeling it.

We stayed there for a few minutes until he pulled away. "Let's do something tonight" he said and I shook
My head. "What would we do?" I ask and he smirked. "Something Michael isn't good at.." He went on I cringed at the mention of his name.

"What's that?" I ask sniffling

"Let's talk" he said and I pulled a confused face. "Oh come on don't give me that bullshit" I try and make it not awkward. "Nah Tessa I mean it lets talk" he says wrapping his long arm around me.

He pulled me close when a familiar red head spotted us making me whimper, Michael didn't seem phased he pulled the girl next to him closer whispering shit into her ear causing her to giggle.

I wanted to cry and Luke noticed as he ran to his car.

Fuck you Michael Clifford you stupid ass.