Why Me?

Me Myself and I...

~January 31, 2016~

     Let's just throw it out there and say I'm definitely not the prettiest girl ever obviously.. And I'm not comfortable with myself or how I look, like I wish I wasn't as tall or as thick.... i dont believe that everyone loves how they look but i mean not everyone is constantly bullied about it. As weve already cleared up my life isn't that great and it was terrible when i was younger, lets just say girls are bitches especially when they are young. I wasn't exactly tiny was i was in elementary-intermediate school, and because of that i got picked on alot, i was bullied and physically beat up for awhile which eventually taught me to not let people mess with me as i got older..hints why im really aggressive now as a 15 year old. Being bullied at a young age caused me to have very bad anger issues to where i had to take a class as a third grader, i didn't even know what it was for i just knew that at a certain time of day i needed to go to the counselors room to talk with other kids for an hour.. i hit kids a lot when i was younger and i tried to fight alot of kids as well, that caused me to be suspended 3 times just in elementary school. I had a bad reputation.. but im getting off track anyways, there's so many bad things that i pint out about myself when i look into a mirror, i can never point out the good because i dont see any.. and the friends i have now have made me a better person even though im not exactly perfect, one friend is pippy of course and shes the one who has changed me the most.. i mean sure yes i do still get into fights but ive tried to control my anger thanks to her. Because i always swore to myself that i would NEVER fight her even though i do mess around with her i dont fight her and if she fights me im not fighting back and that how im controlling my anger because by not hitting her i wont hit other people (or ill try not to hehe). Shes an amazing persona and i dont know what id do without her..