Why Me?

My thoughts..

I've already mentioned how I isolate myself.. It's gotten worse, today during athletics I seep rated myself far away from my friends.. I could tell they knew something was wrong and I want to tell them but idk how .. It's something much much deeper than I think they ever beloved or imagined.. Now let's move to pippy, I tried to have the conversation with her today but gave up at ct.. So I did the usual, I pulled her out of class and talked to her in the bathroom. Like she understands that there's a "block" in our friendship .. Idk what's going on but there's some problem that I've been trying to fix without bringing it to her attention and now she's keeping something else from me..she said that she can't tell me and I'll be better off if she didn't tell me.. But after all of this I just continue to have more thoughts fill my head and sometimes I can just sit there and think and think and not even realize what's going on.. I let my thoughts take over