i have a weird, empty feeling inside me
not a bad sort of empty
it was a sort of lack of sensation
like being in pain for a long time
but then realizing you're not anymore.
i had felt so empty for so long
that it feels weird not being sad all of the time
it's kind of like having a friend
that you hung around all the time
did everything together
but you never particularly liked them
and then they leave and never come back
i don't know if i like it
or not
at least when i was sad
i felt something
now
i'm not happy
but i'm not sad
and i think i'd rather be
screaming in pain from a heartbreak
rather than this
because i think this numbness
could kill me quicker than any sadness
ever could.
