i didn't know how to love
how to love anyone
because i was so consumed
by the hatred within myself
towards the person i was
and those who hurt me.
for those who i did love,
i didn't know how to love them,
because somehow inside
i had always felt hurt
and i wasn't sure if that was my fault
or theirs.
so i stayed empty
with the feeling of nothing in my heart
and whatever i did feel
i didn't know what it was
because i wasn't sure of feelings
or how they were meant to be felt.
maybe emptiness was just made for me
and i wasn't made to feel full
because the only full i was familiar with
was a heart full of sadness.
