I Hate my Crush

Chapter ten: Rinse and Repeat, and Repeat,and Repeat.

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I stayed in my room the whole night and morning. I didn't ever want to leave it. My covers providing warmth, my pillows providing comfort. It was the best thing to ever happen. Whilst the guys were outside. And by guys I mean the whole soccer team. Gonzalo thought calling them would make me feel better. There all standing outside my door. Knocking on it every ten minutes.

My room was dark, the blinds were closed from the outside world. I have never felt so broken. I felt like glass waiting for someone to throw me in the trash can. Scared of what might happen next.

"Is Xavier out there." I ask with my head on my pillow.

"No." Someone repiles.

"Is Vanessa." I ask.

"Nah she's out with Daniel." I shove my face into my pillow more. If that's even possible. "Ow, I mean she's sleeping. Ow I tried to fix it." I chuckle.

I slowly get out of my bed and grab some more PJ's. Hey just because I'm heartbroken doesn't mean I need to be stinky.

I open the door and they all gasp. I probably look like shit. My hair is messy, my clothes are wrinkled, my eyes all red and puffy, not to mention my ruined makeup.

"Hey come her." Gonzalo pulls me in for a hug. Eventually it turns into a group hug. The tears flow. I'm not fine but I need more time to cope. I turn back to my room and lock the door. I turn on a series if sad songs.

I start at 'we belong together' and go all the way to 'IDFWU'. My tears fall every note. My heart aches every time the lyrics relate to me. The music's volume hides my sobs.

"Hey can you take a visitor?" I hear a soft voice, it's Zach.

I walk to my door and open it. He pulls me I to a hug and carries me to my bed. He closes he door and locks it.

"I'm sorry that..." I start.

"Its fine I know about getting crushed by a crush." He tucks a lose strands of hair behind my ear.

"How'd you..." I start again.

"Xavier called."

"How could I have been do stupid and idiotic." I cry into his chest. He wraps his arm around my waist and strokes my hair.

"Its fine let it out." He continues.

Queue more tears.

"It always happens. I give my heart to someone and they say they do anything for me, then someone else comes along and they leave me, but the best part is when they get their heart broken they come back to me, like it didn't happen." I regain my composer. "But whatever I'm fine."

"No you're not and it's okay. I'll be downstairs okay call if you need me." He kisses my forehead and his lips linger for a while. He moves away and instantaneously leaves. I close my eyes and drift off for a while. I wake up on account of the doorbell.

I smell pizza.

I get out of my bed with my cover and walk down the stairs. There was three boxes two cheese and one pepperoni. I grab the two chesse pizzas and walk look at them. They are worried sick. The guys stare at me watching not sure what so say. Thinking one word would cause me to break.

"Anyone wanna share a box." I chuckle my voice hoarse from crying.

GONZALO'S POV:

"Dude she's a mess." We all agree.

"When I get my hands on him." Jay cracks his knuckles. He has a little problem with his anger.