Second Chance Mate...Maya(On Hold)

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NEIL POV :

This is really hard, tough than what I thought. Ignoring Maya is becoming really tough these days especially when she is always looking at me with those big brown mesmerizing eyes.I dont know for how long I will be able to resist her. My wolf Will is totally mad at me. According to him I am a sadist who takes pleasure in pain of his mate. Really ? My own wolf think like that....

Because you treat her like that thatswhy

"Shut up Will, you are not any help"

You need help Neil and no one other but Maya can help you.

"Go to hell !!"

Very soon I will but not alone, you will come with me.

I blocked him out. Will is becoming very violent and aggressive day by day.I cant complain him really ,Maya don't deserve the treatment which I am giving her.Any wolf will be pissed off if someone treats his mate like this. But why she is not getting that I don't want to be with her. She will get nothing but pain from me. At the end both of us will be heartbroken. I don't want to repeat history.

But she is not giving up. My mom and Drew are supporting her. I am sure they want me to accept her but they are not able to see how much they are disturbing Maya in all this process. They are giving all false hopes to her.

Everyday during breakfast she sits beside me. I can see from the corner of my eyes that she kepts on looking at me or tries to make some conversation but I as usual neglects her. Everyday smelling her awesome scent is itself a torture for me. Will keeps on taking control whenever she is around and I don't know for how long I can keep him back.

Whenever she asks for lift and I bluntly say NO trust me It feels like someone has put a ton of loads on my heart. When I see her sad face in rear view mirror it feels like I don't deserve to live, don't deserve to be cause of her miseries but I have to do this. I don't want her to think that this relationship can work. In order to remove her from here from my life I need to do all this.

The worst part is avoiding her cooking. I once saw her silently making chocolate cake in kitchen. She was so concentrated in doing that. She was smiling and even talking with ingredients, weird but it was really ...really cute to see her like that. When she brought the cake for all of us and offered me I just shrugged my shoulders giving her a hatred look and went away from their. I saw  pained and disheartened expression on her face.

Honestly I don't like doing all these things to her. No not at all. But I don't want any second chance mate. I don't want to go through that pain and grief again. I am trying my every bit to be rude and an arrogant jerk in front of her so that she starts hating me and leave me alone. Go find someone else. I am fine and I don't need anyone's pity.

Now this picnic, I am sure mom has planned something along with Drew but I don't know what. Whatever it will be, nothing is going to change my decision. Nothing.

Next Morning :

MAYA POV :

I woke up from my bed and once again brushed my hair for the 20th time now. As planned Drew and all other family members went for picnic at sharp 6'o clock in the morning. During night it was decided that that we will move at 8 in the morning just to give a wrong information to Neil. So that he can sleep late and by that time all other family members would leave except me.

I was told by Mrs Blaire to come around at nearly 8 am from my room so that Neil don't gets any doubt. When Neil will ask about others, I have to play innocent look portraying I don't have any idea and then have to give a call to Mrs Blaire and rest she will handle. I don't know howz she gonna agree Neil to go with me.