Rude much.

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"Thanks." I bowed my head and guided Ravi towards the exit, his gaze on the floor. His eyes still red and puffy, pale as ever. I led him out to Majoon's car. She waited patiently wearing complete black.

I helped Ravi sit and waved bye. Dad is picking me up, he doesn't trust Majoon now.

He glanced up at me through the glass. I waved slightly and forced a small smile. He sighed and looked back down. I watched as his lips moved silently. Majoon nodded and rolled down the window for him.

"Come over later." He said looking down. I nodded quietly and ruffled his hair. Majoon waves and closes the window, I rocked on my heels as they drove away.

Ravi hasn't gotten any better; mentally. The doctor said that he's recovering quite quickly physically. I sat on the curb and scratched at the pavement. From the distance, I saw someone walking with blond hair.

As they got closer, I noticed it was Seungri. I jumped up and smiled in relief to see him. Three whole days without seeing my pesky little.. Uh friend?

He smiles and skips over to me. We hug, I inhale deeply his sweet aroma.

"Oh, someone missed me." He said batting his eyes.
I roll my eyes, "Yea, apparently you!"
"Hey, I was having a great time without your rude bottom!"
"Ahh, sorry. I missed you then!" I said encircling my arm through his.

He sighed and shook his head.

"So, how's Ravi..." He said softly.
"Bad." I whispered back.
"You must like him very much."
"I cant hide it anymore." I said shrugging.

He pulled back with a shocked expression.

"Wait what?" He whispered.
"I love him, I love Ravi.." I said looking away and at all the cars in the parking lot.
"Oh.." His eyes lowered. For a second I thought he looked disappointed, it must be my imagination.

"That brings me to why I came to see you..."

I looked up confused.

"Wow, so you didn't see me because you missed me?" I said teasingly.
"Shush, this is important. Remember... Back to when I told you about how I had mixed feelings..?"
"Wait." I raised my finger up to stop him from continuing, as dad drove up next to us. He rolled down the window.

I leaned in.

"Dad, can we give Seungri a ride over to our place?"
He scowled.
"A boy? In your room?"
"No! Out in the backyard or something."

He reluctantly said yes. Seungri rode in the back in silence as I explained to dad how bad things were. Dad, actually showed some sympathy. He's been through death, like me, so we know how it must feel.

The denial stage: Anger stage: sad stage: Guilty stage: depression stage: then the acceptant stage. The whole process is unbelievably painful.

Dad holds my hand tightly,

"That boy needs you, I'll allow you just this once to be meeting with him frequently." He warningly tossed me a you better watch yourself though look.

I nodded and glanced back at Seungri. He was looking out the window, thinking.

Once we got home, Seungri and I sat in the porch swing. We swung around for a little.

"Your mixed feelings?" I asked.
"Ah, right..." He stared at the tree across from us. "Mixed feelings they are." He muttered. "I think I like you Ayejin." His eyes met mine, his eyes reflected just how nervous he is, his desperation in a way. "But I cant like you, I just cant, I shouldn't!" He let out all too quickly.

I frowned and kicked my legs around in the air. Is he sure that it's not brotherly love? He sighed and rubbed his forehead.

"Ah, sorry... Sorry..." He groaned out. "Dumb! Seungri you are dumb!" He muttered to himself.

I tapped his shoulder. He looked back at me.

"Seungri, you know you mean a lot to me. You're my best friend. And I don't mean to friend zone you, but Im sure you don't really like me and--"

He hugged me and patted my back soothingly. I sighed and patted his back too.

"I'll be going." He whispered in my ear.
Did I hurt him? Oh gosh, I was gonna continue to say how much he meant to me but he stopped me, what if he got hurt? Oh no..
"I understand." I said back.

He pulled back and stood.

"Sorry again Ayejin, I didn't mean to cause awkwardness between us. I didn't expect anything to change between us, its just, I needed to let it out. And maybe you are right." He smiled softly. "Maybe your good looks are confusing me, making me think I like you. Anyways, I didn't really plan on talking very long. So I'll be going. Bye."

He bowed his head and made his way out my front yard, I watched as he walked away, down the street, and around the corner.

I stood up and bit my lip. No crying, now's not the time. It's just that I feel so overloaded. Seungri's confession, Ravi, Eric's death. What next?!

I went inside and ran up to my room. Seungri and Ravi both need me. Why did I, the loner who moved into town, have to get so intertwined with boys?

I took a small nap, to be awoken by a text. It was Ravi. He sent a picture of himself smiling just the smallest bit.

Come over before I strangle you here, with or without an arm.

That picture did not fit his message. I smiled in relaxation to see him smiling, even if it was barely a smile, and messaging playfully.

I got up and stretched, it looked pretty late. But now that dad doesn't mind me going over, I'll take use of it. I get into some comfortable sweats and a tank top, slipping on my coat. I lace up my converse and grab my phone. Time to walk in the bitter, gruesome cold.

As I leave, I explain to dad where and why. He narrowed his eyes at me, and thankfully offers a ride.

As he drops me off, he kisses my forehead and waves. I get out and close the door. Dad drives off. I glance at the dark and silent house, without Eric, his clique doesn't seem to have their gatherings here. Well they can't, they have no right to.

I knock. Ravi immediately opens the door and pulls me in roughly.

"Hey, that hurt."

He snorted.

"Weakling."

I narrowed my eyes at him.

He takes me to his dirty, and smelly room. I notice that he had the posters up again, but as soon as I walked in, he ripped them off the wall and tossed them in his closet. He turns around, and jumps on his bed, face down, making sure not to land on his hurt arm.

I sit next to him and pat his head.

"Did Seungri confess his feelings yet?" He said out of the blue.

I choked on my own saliva at how shocked I was. How did he know?

A/N. new update is making it harder for me to write. LOLOLOL im just too lazy xD anyways, DANGG. Dat cliff hanger. WATCHA THINK???~Ariana

Edit: so I'm going to KCON next year, by next year I mean the summer of 2018 WOOP.