It's your Baby (A Nash Grier Fanfic) | COMPLETED

Chapter 51

Gwen's P.O.V

I lost count of how long I've been lying in my bed, with tear stained cheeks and a dry throat. I couldn't bring myself to sleep, my attempts in doing that were in vain. I stayed wide awake, still exhausted. I didn't wanted to talk to anyone, not even to Alec. I don't want him to find out about this, he will go look for Nash and most likely kill him.

I started caressing my stomach delicately. "It's not your fault" I mumbled. "It is mine, for allowing this to happen" I felt bad for this innocent child, even though he/she is not born yet. It was a mistake to talk to Nash at that bar, to let him seduce me, for always going back to him whenever I needed comfort. When he was holding me in his warm arms, I felt somehow safe, he made me feel in a way no human being has ever before. God, I want to stop thinking about him, but I can't.

I heard a light knock on my door, which made me look up. There stood Alec, leaning on my doorframe, arms folded. I turned the other way, not wanting to look at him, I didn't wanted to speak to anyone. I thought I made that clear when I left to the park.

"Gwen?" he called out for me. I didn't answered, my voice was too weak to mutter anything. I heard his footsteps approaching me, which made me hug my pillow even tighter. He sat down next to me, and rubbed my back soothingly.

"Are you okay?"

No. Of course I am not okay.

But I couldn't tell him that. So I went with a simple: "Yes"

"Then why aren't you looking at me?" he asked, concern clear on his voice. I glanced at my brother, and forced a smile into my lips. At least I stopped crying, but that doesn't mean my face will look good enough for him to believe me.

"I am okay, Alec, just a little tired, that's all" I said. He stared at me for a moment and caressed my cheek tenderly.

"You weren't okay this afternoon when you left for a walk" he said, frowning. I let go a heavy sigh, I know he's worried, but I would like to be alone.

"I. Am. Okay. I promise" I said each word deliberately slow. But his face showed me he didn't bought that. Of course he knows something is up, he's my older brother after all, and there's no one that knows me more than him.

"You know that you can tell me anything, right?" he asked, and I nodded slowly. There's no one I trust more than him, but this is something that I need to deal with alone. I need to deal with the painful heartbreak by myself, without my family on the way.

"Mom and dad are worried for you too" he commented. I stared at the ceiling before looking back at him.

"I know they are, though they don't have to be, there's nothing to be worried about, besides the fact that their little princess is pregnant" even though I've been through this for several months, I still can't help but cringe at the word 'pregnant'.

He nodded, "If you need anything, don't hesitate in telling me. I would do anything for my little sister" he said and kissed the top of my head. I am glad he is in my life, I feel so blessed with him, he always knows how to make me feel happy.

"I know, thank you big bro, I love you so much" I said and hugged him. I felt like crying when I was burying my face on his shirt, inhaling his cologne and lavender scent, a smell I came to love so much, it felt somehow comforting.

He hugged me even tighter, caressing my hair. "I love you so much more, to the infinity and beyond" he said. When we pulled away, he held my face in between his warm hands, staring at me for a moment into my eyes.

"You are my little princess, and if anyone ever hurts you, I will do anything in my will to hunt down that person" he said before placing a kiss on my forehead.