It's your Baby (A Nash Grier Fanfic) | COMPLETED

Chapter 49

Nash's P.O.V

Fuck.

Fuck.

Fuck.

This can't be happening. . .Not like this, God no. I can't believe she knows everything. I mean, I knew it was coming, but I should've been the one to tell her about this. I should've told her that I was stupid for posting that, for lying to millions of people, I should've told her that I was sorry, that I would make it up to her. And then this happened, just like Cameron predicted. I am such an asshole. I am a disgusting person, a lying bastard, a concieted jerk, a selfish idiotic, and pathetic human being. God, I hate myself so much right now. But, not as much as she hates me in this exact moment.

Half of my mind tells me I should give her time, to let her cool down. After hearing her curse like that—which she never does—I should just stay away for a few days before speaking to her again. But the other stubborn part of me tells me that I should go to her house right now and apologize for my fucked up actions, to explain to her that I do actually care for her, a lot.

Before I know it, I'm grabbing my car keys and rushing out the door. I kept thinking in all of the things I could say, anything that can make this any better. But then I started thinking what an idiot I am since there's no fucking way I can make this situation improve. She hates me, I know, she doesn't want to know anything about me, I felt it in her voice. I got inside my car, and hit the steering wheel.

"Dammit!" I screamed out in frustration. "Shit, what am I doing?" I asked aloud. I scratched the back of my head and started the engine, driving as fast as I could to Gwen's house. I grabbed my phone and dialed her number. I left her like 7 missed calls, 2 voicemails, and 5 text messages, but nothing. She didn't answer me at all.

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When I got there, I bolted towards the main door as fast as my legs would allow me to. I rang the doorbell and basically pounded on the door multiple times. Minutes later, Alec opened it, giving me a confused look.

"I need to speak to Gwen" I said, urgently.

He folded his arms, "Gwen's not here" was his reply.

"Where is she?" I asked, getting annoyed with every passing second.

"She wanted fresh air so she went for a walk. You don't know what is going on with her? Because she was crying and pissed. If you know anything, you have to tell me"

"If I tell you, you would kill me" I said. He furrowed his eyebrows in confusion and his arms fell to his sides.

"Excuse me? What did you say? I swear if you did anything to my little sister you will pay for it"

"I know, but I truly need to talk to her, I am just as worried as you are for her. . .And if I don't find her, everything will get worst"

"Can you please explain what the fuck is going on? You are getting on my nerves, Grier" he said, through gritted teeth.

"There's not time to explain, alright? I gotta find your sister" I started walking towards my car and quickly got in, recieving multiple confused looks by Alec, but I didn't have time right now. I only have one mission: Finding Gwen. I always needed to mess everything up, why am I such an idiot? If I would've told her the truth, then non of this would've happen, she would still be here, with me.

I searched nearly everywhere, but nothing, she's nowhere to be found and I'm getting worried. Where the hell would she go?

Dammit. Dammit. Dammit.