A Girl's Guide to Guys and God.

Taking My Own Advice

So I know it's been a while since I've updated this, but I have a good reason to now. Sometimes when I write about something it makes it easier for me in my own life. In this case, it's the fact that I'm perfect. With or without a guy.

I'm gonna get super personal and use fake names for this one. Bear with me here. This is tough for me to even write.

So "Barry" is a kid I've never really had and eye on or ever even talked to very much. I had the perfect opportunity to be around him and get to know him in a way. Let me give you a little background:

I'm little, nerdy (proud of it), awkward, weird, and just kinda out of the loop.

Barry is super cute, out going, confident, funny, loved by all.

So we were doing a school show together then BOOM. I was put with another guy. This new guy is cool, don't get me wrong. But good timing on my part, I had just decide that I liked Barry. So now I get to watch Barry to the thing with "Jane". Ouch. I'll admit. It was hard to watch. I was upset but I got over it. "He'll never look my way any way." I thought. Well, a few days ago Barry and Jane walk through the library, I'm the only in there and he simply says:

"Ello, akzimm22." (With a silly British accent he and Jane were doing.)

"Ello" I said back. That was all. Then they walked out.

(Barry and Jane are like this [I'm crossing my fingers.]). They would get married some day if they weren't related.)

I got all giggly. And smiley and probably blushed a little. I couldn't believe he actually talked to me. Even so simply.

Tonight I'm at rehearsal and I look over and see Barry and "Martha" on the floor kind of pretending to make out. (Yes, it was related to the thing. Not just random.) I think my heart is was broken, it was hard to watch him "kiss" another girl who isn't even his girlfriend! (No he doesn't have one in case you were wondering).

So I was at home running this through my head as tears strickled down my face. Then I wiped them away and thought. "Why do you care about what Barry does? Why do you care about who he hangs out with?"

Jesus made me perfect so why should I worry about who Barry kisses? I get a kiss goodnight every night from Jesus Christ. That's way better than anything Barry could do for me!

In case you're wondering. Yes, I still like him but I remember. The world doesn't revolve around my crush. Duh.