Life Boat :ANDY BEIRSACK FAN FIC

the wounds we stich

previously

before he has a chance to say any thing you hit the end call button on your screen and hang up. you stand their in shock at what you just did and then the first text from him comes in......

when the first text comes in you are afraid to read it and when you do you immediately regret it. ( so I just realized I never gave the boyfriend a name I don't think so ya his name is going to be Jason because reasons.) after you unlock your phone you look at the text and immediately regret your decision

Jason: HOW DARE YOU HANG UP ON ME YOU FUCKING SLUT

you look at the text with utter disgust and then more come to fallow that one

Jason: I WILL HUNT YOU DOWN AND FIND YOU

Jason: you're sleeping with all of them right,what they say about you is true isn't it, you are the band slut

Jason: I knew all my friends said I was dating a hoe but I didn't believe them I guess I was wrong

Jason: I wish you died the first time you tried to kill your self. all you are is a waist of space. and every one hates you.the band you're with only has you with them because they pity you and feel bad for you

Jason: kill your self we all want you to

Jason: I found out where the next show is ill see you their

Jason: I cant wait to see you its going to be so much fun

with that last text you are on the verge of tears. you let the phone of your screen go black before you wipe your teary eyes. And go back in to the restaurant. when you enter you put a fake smile on your face and sit back down putting your phone on the table. putting on the sweater that you brought along with you. cc leans over to you." you okay ." you look at him smile and nod. And then your phone vibrates. once. twice. Three times. it goes of about fifteen times before you reach up take it off the table shut it off completely and shove it in your purse. you get weird glances from the guys but none of them seem to curious to ask about what's going on. after the boys pay for the food a car comes to pick you up and you go to the bus. every one goes and sits in the main area and you climb in your bunk take out your phone, and take a deep breath before turning it on. when you do you see you have 24 text messages all from Jason. you read all of them. you have a blank expression when cc comes to you're bunk. "hey were ganna go out and grab some drinks I know you cant drink but you want to come any way." you shake your head and smile acting like everything is fine. and he just says okay quickly hugs you and walks back to the main area. you hear the boys leave and when they do you change into your batman onsite and just sit their staring at the wall across from you. then another text comes in .

Jason: kill your self.

You:okay

after about an hour of you just staring at the ceiling of your bunk the first tear escapes your eye. its been about three hours since the boys left and every moment you're mentally spiraling out of control. everything you've eaten comes flooding back into your mind. the need to take a razor to your skin is over whelming. all of the sudden the door to the bus opens and someone walks In and fear over whelms your senses. Its not until you hear the faint humming that you realize its Andy. You get out of your bunk and slowly walk over to the main area. when you get to the main area Andy is sitting at the counter and is on his phone he doesn't hear you so you text him."Andy" is all you type and as soon as he gets the text he looks up and sees you. tears runing down your face. and he is immediately walking to you." what's wrong what happened." he looks at you with concern in his face. just then your phone goes off three times and you cringe." let me see them." you unlock your phone and then go to the text. he reads all of them with a look of horror growing on his face at each. and then he sees the text from you . and his face goes white. he looks at you and before he can do any thing he you run to the bathroom and lock the door. about two seconds after you close it he starts banging on the door and you turn on the shower. " y/n please open the door." [[[[[TRIGGER WARNING COMIN UP ]]]]]]] you start to look for anything sharp that you can use to cut, Andy continues to relentlessly bang on the door trying to get in but the door wont budge. And then you see it cc's shaving razor you grab it and go to the draw under the sink and find the heaviest thing you can find and when you do you use it to smash the razor cartridge to gain access to the individual razors. as soon as you have access to them you pick one up and sit on the ground. " please don't do this y/n come on please come out please." this makes you cry harder slump completely on the floor against the wall." baby girl please you are doing so good." when you don't answer he starts banging on the door even faster and harder than before. then you do the thing that the razor is intended to do but you only make three shallow but satisfying cut's on your arm after that you go in to the shower cloths and all and turn the water too the coldest setting it can go to and fall to the floor not wanting to try. "hunny can you please open the door and let me in." three more cuts are added to your arm... " please open the door love please please please..." and with that you add five more cuts to your arm. you hold out the razor. and you realize you failed everyone and that just makes you add more cuts. you look at the razor as Andy's knocks get louder and louder. " babe if you don't open the door i'm ganna break it down." and when you don't answer you hear loud banging on the door. 3 bangs later and Andy is hurtling in to the bathroom he looks at you and you drop the razor and curl up in to a ball hiding your arm. as you put your head down you go over everything that has happened in the last five minuets and feel the creep of anxiety. then it gets stronger and stronger and stronger till the point where you start to have an panic attack. Andy just stares and looks at the scene in front of him. as soon as he sees you in the shower, crying and huddled in the corner of the shower shaking, lips blue from the icy flow if water coming out of the shower head. Andy rushes over and turns the water off and grabs three towels and puts one across. his chest and one around your head when you he picks you up bridal style and then he carry's you out of the bathroom and he caries you to his bunk placing the towel on to his lap before sitting down with you and hugging you. rocking you back and forth as you ride out the panic attack and you try to breath and control the rhythm of your heart. Andy pulls you off his chest." look at me. hey look at me." and when you look at him he takes your head in his hands making your breath catch." know one on this earth will harm you as long as I live. and if they do they wont be alive for long." and you look at him in the eye. and with that you just curl back into a ball in his lap when you do he hugs you close. and when you finally stop crying he looks at you and wipes your tears." stay here and don't move okay." you nod not having the energy to do anything else. He goes away for about three minuets and comes back with a first aid kit and more towels and a change of cloths that you don't recognize " love I'm going to need to see your arm now." you nod no franticly and he starts making shushing noises." I'm just going to clean it and put bandages on it okay." you hesitantly hold out your arm and he looks at it with a blank expression and stars getting out a packet. he tears a packet open and pulls out a cloth and looks you straight in the eyes. " this is most likely going to hurt, like, a lot." you nod and prepare your self for the sting of rubbing alcohol. he counts down from three and he places the cloth down and rubs it over your arm. you let out a small wince as he does so and as soon as he takes the cloth off he takes Neosporin and gently rubs it in to your arm and when he's done with that he takes the bandage and wraps your arm up he hands you the cloths. its a pair of sweat pants a tank top and sweater and some underwear. " I'm going to turn around so you can get changed okay." you nod and he turns around you start to get changed, you strip down to your undergarments and then when are changing you look in the mirror and see your self. every place on your body looks fat to you and you don't like it. you look away in shame and finish getting changed, once you do and your hair is in a pony tail you walk up to Andy and when you do, you do you tap him on the shoulder and he turns around. once he does you hug him and when you do he hugs you in the biggest bear hug ever he walks you over to his bunk and lifts you up and gently places you on it. he looks at you. he lifts a hand and you flinch and he gives you a smile and slowly moves his hand forward and then tucks a stray hair behind your ear and smiles at you, he leans up kisses your forehead making you blush slightly and he then lifts your legs and pulls down the cover and like a two year old he pushes you in to the bed. he then goes to the light switch and turns of the light walks back to the bunk climbs in and closes the Curtin to the bunk and then takes you and wraps you in a warm embrace and starts singing savior. You snuggle in to him and have the best nights sleep you've had in a long time. when you wake up you smell pancakes, but not just any pancakes cc's strawberry banana pancakes. he only makes them on special occasions or when you aren't felling good. Andy must have told them what happened. fuck. as you get out of bed you look at the close you are warring and realize they are Andy's mainly because the sweatpants say batman on the side and the shirt is marvel themed. you look at everything around you the thought that cc made the pancakes that you love and the fact that Andy took care of you last night and if he didn't you most likely would not be here any more. and after every thing you still haven't talked because of how shy you are. for fucks sake you think. if you can sleep In the same bed with Andy you can say hi. as you walk out of the bunk area in to the main area the smell of food is so very strong and you walk over and sit next to Andy and Ashley as you do so Andy raises his arms up and bear hugs you and Ashley does the same. as you look over at Andy you give him a sheepish smile and he smiles back. He twist his body so he is facing you "how are you feeling love." You just nod and shake your hand in the air meaning that you're 50% ok 50% not ok and surprising everyone you grab a piece of bacon and a pancake and eat it. Andy looks at you and smiles you stick out you're tong. At this moment sitting with everyone you realize they care. And with everything going on it would be easier to talk to them. Even if you can talk to Ash and cc you've known them the longest and have grown a relationship with them." SIS HELLO EARTH TO Y/n." You look up snapped out of you're daydream and look up at you're brother." WHATS running through that head of yours."you look at him and shrug you're shoulder's and smile.you then all the sudden get up and jump in his lap causing him to grunt and causes you to let out a giggle."OMG SHE MADE A NOISE PROGRESS." You can't help but smile at Andy's comment. Just to make more noise you whistle with your fingers." someone is feeling sassy today aren't we." says cc.you look at him smile a flip him off. Causing Andy and the rest of the guys to laugh when this happens.after you give your brother a hug you wave to the guys and go back to the bunk and then go lay down with your phone and when you do you text Andy to come to the bunks and he replies he will be over in a minute and also asked if everything was okay you replied "ya"and about two minutes later he comes over and you pat the seat next to you and you start typing on your phone to send him a message." okay so i don't know where any of the stores are around here are and i also don't want to go alone because well you know what happened last time." you send the message and he reads It. "Ya I'll take you we just need to get dressed. You both get dressed and head to the store.as you get in the car,witch is a truck, that is shared by the guys he puts on the radio and carry on my wayward son comes on the radio.you know the drum sequence to the song and start playing air drums. Andy full on belts in the car as you dramatically play your imaginary drums.as you approach the store you run in get shampoo and conditioner and some hair ties and Bobby pins you also get gum and a bottle of Arizona tea.you get an idea in your head and get an air horn .as you check out you also get a pack of cigarettes and a blue lighter. You pay with cash and go back out side to the car.when you get to the car he smiles at you.you smile evilly."oh no I know that look. What have you got planed." you dig through the bag and pull out the air horn.....

A/n

hii so this is chapter two and ya hope you enjoyed it 😘😘😀😀next update should be soon soo ya