Life Boat :ANDY BEIRSACK FAN FIC

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You hiched a ride back to the arena. Then Your face is brused but not to bad. Your lip is cut and swollen but it's fine.When you got out of the truck you see a few people around. Meaning they already started the concerti. You dig in your bag and find your back stadge pass... You scan it at the entrance. As soon as you walk in you see a tv with the stage on it... The guys are performing... You have been gone a week, and they look different. They don't have there usual makeup on.ashes hair is up and out of his face.. And he has a shirt on for once. Andy has a beani on with a sweatshirt and lose jeans. It's weird that they would performed like this. You sit and watch most of the show. They announce that they are ganna play their last few songs. But before they do they Andy says something in the mic. " hey guys... I know we aren't the really gofy guys you normal see on stage... As you guys might know... Cc's sister y/n is missing. We have been out looking for her almost 24/7 and we won't stop until we find her. We ended up talking to her this mourning but very briefly. If you have any information about where she is we need it because according to the last time we talked to her... We don't have much time left .... We need to bring her home. We all love her and miss her and unfortunately we aren't our selfs because when she's here it's like a lights always on.. Yes she has rough days, and on some of those days we thought we would lose her... But now we are more worried then ever. We fear she is going to take her own life.... So if you see her or know anything please let us know! The next song we sing is a favorite song of hers and it seems to calm her down so if everyone could get out their phones and record this and put it on every type of social media you have that would be awesome." They then start to play lost it all... Andy starts to tear up. and you sing along to every word the only thing that ruined it was Juliet came on and sang her parts. They then played savior. But they played a slow acoustic version. You could tell the guys were tearing up... You did this to them...With everything seeming to hit you at once you needed a release...there were only two way's you could think of... One was in your bag and the other was on a stage and you were still to scared to talk to them... You find the closest bathroom and go in to a stall. You find a razor... You make shallow cuts on your wrist the lift your shirt and cut up and down your side... The feeling when the razor kissed your wrist was like a explosion of warm pleasure and pain. You wipe off your wrist and side and walk out of the bathroom. You walk back to the tv and see them playing their last song,in the end. They sound good but you can tell they just want to get off the stage. The song was about 8 counts faster then it should be. You look at cc,his face is blank. And has no emotion. You start walking being careful to hide  if you see anyone...you don't want any one to know you are here yet. Everyone's going to hate you more now that the boys aren't performing at their best. You start trying to find your way backstage...you pass another tv and see that they are finishing the song. Shit. That means people will soon be flooding the halls... You start running towards back stage. And when you get there you run in to two security guards. The are from this venue so the don't know you. And of course you left your backstage pass in the bathroom.The crowd is starting to grow because the guys left the stage. You keep on trying to convince the Guards were to let you through... But they won't let you go. You are standing there showing them pictures of you and the guys  the bus but they keep telling you that they could be photo shopped. You stand there thinking of what you could do... Then you see him. The security guard, lance, that watched you that one day on the bus. You and him got quite close before you left and it was good to see a familiar face. You scream as loud as you're voice will allow you to.
Y-- you
L--lance
Y"LANCE"
He heard his name and he heard your voice so he started to look around. He was looking and looking until his eyes found you.his expression was one of relief and joy. He ran to you and you ran somewhat to him. He picked you up bear hugging you but put you down when you whimpered because of your side. He took your face in hands.
L " I am so fucking happy to see your face in person again. And I can tell you did some damage to your side and I'm guessing your arm to..."
At this you put your head down in shame.
L"but you know what.i am so proud of you.i know that it could have been a lot worse. And I'm so proud of you for coming back. And I'm glad you did."
Y" I'm glad I did to."
L" who did that to you." He said pointing At your busted lip and bruised  face.
Y" my ex...."
L" well if I ever meet this guys he's gonna have a busted lip and a bruised face plus some other damage."
Y"don't worry I whooped his ass...knocked him out actually... But I'm still gonna give you a pic of him because he is going to be pissed as hell and he's done much worse to me..."
At that lance lifts your chin to make you look at him.
L" you got me.. he won't ever touch you again as long as I'm here..."
You hug him once more.
L"let's get you back to the guys ok."
You nod half heartedly.
L" they aren't mad, they are the opposite ok. You don't have to be scared of going back. The worst that will happen is you get hugged to death."
You smile at him he takes your hand then he frowns.
L" do you want me to clean you up or one of the guys."he said really hesitantly. You smile at him because he obviously  wants  your brother to do it because of the location.he exhales when you tell him that you want one of the guys. You and him walk hand and hand  When lance pulls out a walkie talkie.
G= one of the guys.
L=lance
L"Hey where are you guys"
G" dressing room."
You hear your brothers voice and start to cry. He sounds so down. His voice comes through the walkie talkie again asking why he wanted to know, but in the back you can here someone crying.
"L"just checking in, is ash crying again."
G" ya he is... All this is really hard on him. We are gonna go out and start looking for y/n in about half an hour"
L"ok. Hey start walking to the stage will ya. ill meet you there."
G"ok.wait all of us or me?"
L"all of you"
G" why does it sound like someone is crying near you."
At that you put your hand over your mouth and then stop breathing, in attempt to control your crying.lance squeezes your shoulder and waits until you have quieted down considerably.
L"don't know. no one around me is crying."
G" ok well we will start heading to the stage in five,ash needs to calm down before we go any where."
L" ok see you at the stage."
You walk crying because ash is crying and you want to hug him so bad. You walk for what seems like for ever until you get to the dressing rooms area. The guys said that they were at the stage and we're waiting. As you round the corner you see him. Andy. He is walking out of the dressing room on his phone. You stop dead in your tracks and look at lance. He smiles at you and pushes you forward. You start walking. Then you start crying because he is right there. You stop because You are shaking. You call his name and of course he has ear buds in so he can't here you. You call him so he takes out his earbuds and as soon as he does you hang up the call. He text you but you leave the text unread. Then of course Andy being Andy he puts back in his ear buds. So you call him again. He takes out his ear buds, And as soon as he does you stop calling again. You take a deep shaky breath.
Y=you
A=andy
Y"Andy! Turn the fuck around!"
He stops all motion. His head goes up. And he turns slowly around. He sees you. He sees your bruised cut tear stained face. He starts walking to you. You start walking to him. You both gradually increase speed until you are both running. You reach each other and you jump in to his arms.you both fall. But both of you don't care. You sit there crying in his arms,while he just holds you. He holds you like you're going to break... He pulled away and looks you in the eyes.
A" God I missed you. Are you ok. Who did that to you." He said referring to your face.
Y" I missed you to. I'm fine. And my ex did this. But he's given me much worse. I knocked him out and took off but I know he will be come after me... And I don't know what's ganna happen if he finds me Andy I'm scared and I don"
He cut you off by gently shshing you.
A" as long as you are with me no one is ever ganna hurt you." You nod and give him a sheepish smile. He hugs you but it causes you to wince.
A" I'm guessing you harmed your self again which I can under stand. But I'm just letting  you know that you will be giving me any and all razors. "
You nod your head in understanding. He hugs you again but so gently that it feels like you are being hugged by a cloud he pulled back and looks at your face.he wipes a tear of your face and gives you a smile. God you missed that smile. A single tear runs down his cheek, you take your hand and gently brush it away. You giggle slightly and he smiles
"I missed your laugh." You gave him a small smiles. He helps you up and as soon as he does he gasps.
Y" what"
A" you got even skinner!How! you only were gone a week?!"
Y" i didn't eat for the entire time I was gone..."
A" well we need to feed you.and we need to get you to your brother." You nod your head. He holds out his hand and you take it.you turn around to find lance but he wasn't there.you go in to the dressing room and and has you sit on the couch / bed. You see Ashly's stuffed hello kitty plushy that you got him. You take it and hold it in your hands. Andy returns with a yogurt and vitamin water. He hands them to you and you eat the yogurt, taking a small drink of the vitamin water in between each bites. You look at your self in the Mirror. You are even skinnier than you remember.but you still see areas that you want to fix. Andy comes up behind you and wraps his arms around your Shoulders, resting his head on your head
A" you are perfect " he whispered in to your ear. You shook your head no.
Y" I'm far from it..."
He squeezes your shoulders then some how swoops you up so he is giving
you a piggy back ride. You stay on his back until you get to the dressing room door.
A" let's get you back to your brother hm." You nod your head scared to see him again. You don't want him to be mad... He's probably furious with you... You are walking and Andy sensing something is rong he takes your hand and walks close to you. You get to the theater and ask Andy to open the doors as quietly as he can so you can see where they are. He opens the doer almost silently and then closes them be hind you as quietly as possible. He does a good job because they don't even turn around. You stand there looking at them. Your family. They are all sitting in the second row.there is about 240 rows and of courses hey all have head phones in. You call cc and he starts to wave frantically and they all pull out there ear phones. he is sitting right there. He is frantically trying to call you back. You turn your ringer all the way up. Then he calls you and it goes off. You press decline call after the first ring. You call him and he answers the phone putting it on speaker
A= andy
c=cc
As= Ashly
Ji= jinx
Ja=jake
C" hey sis where are you are you ok?"
Y"I'm fine.you guys need to cheer up."
C" how do you know we're sad.we haven't seen you in a week."
Y"well I've seen you guys."
C"how? And you dogged my question of where you are. "
As"ya where are you I really need a hug from you." Ash said sniffling . You look at Andy for what to do because you were starting to tear up. He turns you around and hugs you. It helps calm you down a lot.
Y"I really need a hug to... I have to go I'm sorry goodbye.."
At that you hang up the call. You turn in to Andy because as soon as you hang up you start crying.you here various "oh shit" and "no" from the other guy's.
You turn around and start walking towards them. You look terrible, you have a bruised ,cut lip,tear stained face. Ash is crying. So is your brother. Jake and jinxx Are trying to console them telling them it will be ok and we'll find her. You stand still your heart beating fast.you take out your phone. You send him a text.
Y"stop crying ....please..."
Cc" how do you know I'm crying. And I'll stop crying when you are in my arms safe."
Y".... Then turn around and stop crying....."  A moment later his phone goes off. He opens the text. His face has a look of confusion. Then realization. Then hope. And he looks frantically around. His eyes land on you. He stands up... And starts running full sprint to you. You start running to him. When you reach each other it's like a wave of emotion washed over the both of you. You both sit there crying on the floor.
C" your ok! Your alive! Your so skinny you need to eat!! Now!!! Who did that to you!!! Was it Jason! If it was he's not going to be alive for long! Your ok! Your back! Hi! Omg! " this little rant has you laughing so hard you can hardly breath. Once you finally calmed down you answered him.
Y"I'm half ok.i am alive, I didn't eat while I was gone and I lost almost 10 pounds... Andy fed me.it was Jason but don't worry I knocked him out.I'm half ok. Ya I'm back, hi big bro... I really missed you..." He sits there looks at you.
C" I missed you to..." He pulls you in close. After a minute you here a sniffle. You look up and see ash teary eyed. You let go of cc and look at ash. You hold your arms open and ash walks in them and hugs you like you are a glass doll.
As" I missed you!"
Y" I missed you to ashy."
As" you do know we are all hunting down and killing Jason, right." You just laugh.
"Well I fought back this time.so he's ganna be pissed.and he's most likely going to hunt me down."ash looks at you and lifts your head up until you are looking at him like a small child.
As"well then he's ganna have to go through staff,security,and most importantly us unordered to get to you.do that son-na-bitch is not getting to you any time soon."you give him a half smile (it hurts to smile because if your lip and bruised cheek.)and he hugs you once more.he lets you go and you go over and hug jake and jinxx. Them both saying how it's good to have you back. You walk back to the bus. Or rather your brother carried you to the bus. As soon as you get there he makes you eat. Just some crackers nothing big because he knows you won't be able to stomach it right now. After a while Andy comes out and tells you that when you want to take a shower you can,and you hop up right away. You grab some cloths and go take your shower. When you get out your arm and side are stinging and you know you need to wrap them up before they get infected. You walk out. Look at Andy with the look he knows well. The look of regret fear and defeat. He knows what it means and gets up he takes your hand and walks you back to his bunk.he tells you to sit down and he goes and comes back with the first aid kit.
A"you ready." You shake your head no.
Y"I'm very far from ready.but let's just get this over with." You close your eyes and roll up your sleeve. You feel his had gently grip your forearm, right above your wrist,You still have your eyes closed. You don't want to see the look of disappointment on his face. You feel his thumb gently run over the shallow cuts on your arm... He then leans down and places a gentle kiss on one of the cuts. This makes you relax almost completely.
A"ok here we go." He rubs rubbing alcohol on your arm causing you to wince. He then gets out some bandage and wrap, and puts them on your arm. A" ok arm done.lay down on you side so I can clean the other side"
You take off your sweater and then lay on your side. You lift up your shirt to expose the cuts... These are deeper more intense cuts. Andy cleans them off which hearts like a bitch. He then places a gauze pad over them and helps you sit up then raps your entire stomach so the gauze won't fall off. Then he kisses the area where the cuts on your side are. He then pics you up and puts you on his back so he is giving you a piggyback ride, causing you to squeal because of the random sudden movement. Causing him to chuckle. You playfully smack him making him chuckle even more.
Y" wait let me put on my sweater!"
He puts you down on the bed and you put on your sweater then he pics you up again. He Carries you out to the main area and puts you down next to cc. Who Immediately pulls you close to him and Andy sits next to you. The boys come and all sit around you.
Cc"what movie should we watch" and not even 0.5 seconds later you and Andy scream "BATMAN" and both your faces stay completely serious. Cc gets up and looks around in the movies for a second then he pulls out batman and puts it in. As soon as the opening theme song starts you and Andy are bouncing up and down and are reciting the song from memory. When the actual movie starts you and Andy recite every word. Then he gets a call. From Juliet. She needs him to pick her up. He leaves to get her saying he'll be back. Once he returns he has a slurring, stumbling Juliet in his arms. She was drunk. She was stumbling around and after a second you noticed she has a bottle of jack Daniels.it was half empty.andy walks her back to the bunks with an annoyed expression on his face. And when he goes back you here some rustling.a couple minutes go by and all of the sudden your here a loud crashing sound coming from the bunks. You get up as fast as you can and walk back. You see Andy holding his face blood coming down his hand. You smell alcohol. You see fragments of broken glass. You also see a passed out juiliet.
Y"what happened?"
A"she hit me over the head when I tried to take the bottle away."
Y"oh."
A"yea"
You walk back to the bathroom and get the first aid kit. You walk back and sit on a bunk telling Andy to lay his head on your lap. He does and you start to look at how bad the wound is. It's not to bad but there is a piece of glass coming out of his skin and it's bleeding quite a bit. You take the tweezers and, as gently as you can, take the piece of glass out of his face. You take some hydrogen peroxide wipe the area clean. You take some gauze and bandage up the cut. Then gently kiss the area. You sit there and after a while you both get up and walk back to the main area.you sit on the couch next to your brother and Andy sits next to you. They are watching a movie you have never seen before. And as you sit by your brother and the guys, you realize you are home. You are with family. Two hours later you are falling asleep when you feel your body lifted up you know by the sweet smell of  musk and lavender
that it is andy. He Cary's you back to the bunks and lays you down then turns off the light and lays down. He places a small kiss on the back of your head and you turn around to snuggle up with him. He places another small kiss on your forehead.

A"good night baby girl"
Y"goodnight batman"
You both fall asleep. But you have butterfly's in your stomach. He called you baby girl. Then you get a pang of sadness. Because you know that he will never love you the way you love him. You love him the way a girlfriend loves a boyfriend. He loves you in the way a friend loves a friend. That's the way it will always be.

OMG GUYS I HAD SO MANY FEELS WRITHING THIS
how are you guys I haven't updated in like a month!!!!I'm so sorry!!!if you guys like this let me know!!!!! I love to hear from you guys!!! Also give me suggestions for names!!!!!!! And ya byyyyyyyyyyeeeeeeeee
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