Everything I Could Never Tell You

This Is My Escape.

Hey guys!!!!!

Just btw I DO NOT promote self-harm or suicide. I love you all and want you to stay strong. 

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I try

To deny.

The feelings that I find

Inside of my mind,

Because they are killer.

I wake up to hear my alarm on my bedside

Table reminding me that I'm still alive.

I sigh.

And get up to see

Blood on my sheets.

I look down at my hands

Then at the knife

On my bedside

Table and the blood that has stained

the metal.

I can't stop thinking,

"How would it feel

Through my heart

Instead of my sleeve?"

I am not ashamed

It does not bring me pain

I am way past the point of depressed.

I am suicidal.

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                                                                   Help me, help them. 

                                                                              Please.